Satanism and Sexual Misery

Thank you GOD for this mission assignment.

Like Kirk just said "I bridge the gap between Christ and Lucifer." ... and I think that's true for him and also for me. Of course https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoTX5ff9Ze0 ("I have come to build a bridge"), one of my theme songs for this year, came to heart.

Today's AG pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Anti-Christ_Northern_Pillar
Super related to PAUL and what we were talking about ... I shared with him earlier:

I have been trying to reconcile satanism as well and had a big breakthrough based on my understanding of your understanding... basically my new realization boils down to satan = christ. 

The "Christ" of Christianity, the golden calf, Jesus, that is in reality (outside the matrix) the "anti-Christ". (I'm not talking about the actual dude, Yeshua - I like to think he existed and that he was like us.) Anyway... the Christian false god which they are worshipping is the anti-truth. anti-christ. anti-freedom. (There's a verse in the NT that says something like "if the light that you think you have is really darkness, how deep that darkness is".) 

So if the christ is the anti-christ, then maybe the anti-christ is actually the christ. 

Semantics. And what matters is the meditation of our hearts. The words are signposts. 

And he sent me a video about it: https://youtu.be/VNcRXeCzpno (Is God really the Devil)

And I just think this is Paul's and my shared work. Masculine Healing... Rod healing... Golden Eagle Grid... Sexual Misery repair... (Now another theme song from this year just came on "Wash it Away"..."we're a part of something special"..."stay humble"..."gonna be a guardian")

I feel so honored and blessed! 
STOP TRYING TO SCARE HIM AWAY. What if it works???

Anyway... I need to do more research:
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Satanic
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Mainstreaming_of_Satanism
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Thothian_Grid

It's so BIG and so much what we've been working with all year...this is a new level. Do we have to jump in to it... but we'll be holding each other in love. Right? AHHHHH!!!

And of course with the sexual misery programming, we've got Humbled Females - and the BDSM community - this is brought forward for my own healing and the earth's healing. I have to compassionately witness it from a place of NEUTRALITY. If I fall into judgment and condemnation and fear it halts the work. 

WILD. Thank you God!!
Is Paul my partner or a portal or both??

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Is Paul https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Indigo_Races ?
Support: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Medulla_Oblongata

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4:38 feeling very deflated after reading a couple of Paul's responses on the HF site. Just hearing his heart and mind and the distortions. It's really hard. It feels like part of the demon or darkness that I feel he left in the dust in that other timeline on 10/31?

I WAS SENT to support him and merge. We DO have the same life purpose. How do I reconcile this?? 

He didn't respond to my "confessions" today at all. 

I'm going to "walk quietly" for a while. Keep listening. It's here to transmute. If I can hold it with compassionate neutrality, it can shift. This is my job. I love him. I DO love him. 

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Thank you GOD for Paul. He called tonight and we had such a healing conversation (for me).... first of all he was just being a compassionate witness for my "confessions", not trying to influence them, just what he was supposed to do. I have so much to learn from him. He is love in action.

And he read through his HF posts with me... he likes a lot of what he was saying still (it's 3 years old...from before his spiritual nomad experience), but he is open to the TRUTH and understood what I was saying about trying to force the divine plan...acting it out vs. surrendering INTO it. I want to surrender into it. With Paul. 

He is my strong tower and my still waters and the banks to my river. 

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