Wolf and Paul

WOLF:

https://whatismyspiritanimal.com/spirit-totem-power-animal-meanings/mammals/wolf-symbolism-meaning/

The HU - Wolf Totem: https://vimeo.com/457227711

Paul represents and embodies WOLF. Growls like him when he releases. I need to understand the wolf's heart more...and see how it manifests in supporting my healing and growth. This seemed on point:

For Seekers who feel afraid or threatened, Wolf reminds us of how those feelings put our entire psyche off balance. Yes, fear plays an important role in personal safety unless it becomes all-consuming or is baseless. Don’t let the darkness consume your Spirit.

I need to process and share from my experience with Paul. I feel clogged up. I haven't even listened to my last Charlotte session and I have another one tomorrow. And all the stuff with Paul.... AH.

Today on my walk with the dogs I realized that this is so much what I signed up for... this is what we came for. To go into the dark... into that which is hard... and be the light. I AM THE LIGHT THE LIGHT I AM. And Paul and I contracted to do this together... and we can support one another in sloughing off the chains that have kept us trapped. This is Seraphim reclamation and reclamation of the divine masculine. We are meant to do this together. It doesn't look like the counterfeit "Disney prince/princess" story. It looks a little more like Shrek...we are ogres with hearts of gold and all we need to do is LOVE...serve...give. Tikkun Olam. 

WE FOUND EACHOTHER. THAT IS HUGE!!! A MIRACLE!!! GOD, THE UNIVERSE, FOUND US - WE ARE ON TIME. Now is the time. Don't believe the LIES and psychic attack designed to destroy what was intended!! ARROWS OF DOUBT. LIES. We need to be together!! 

FEAR NOT.

We can overcome everything in LOVE. WITH LOVE. PAUL IS MY WOLF. FUCK EVERYONE ELSE WITH THEIR OPINIONS AND BLACK MAGIC AND DOUBTS... it's not about them. Corie helped me slough off Page's BM negative energy and Bobbi sent an image today that said that too.

Even my OWN EYES create doubts. I have to remember that we are MULTIDIMENSIONAL and we are perfectly suited for one another. When we are on the same timeline = magic. When we aren't, the witness of the other helps collapse and restore fragments to teleios. 

4:43

4:44 HEART HEALING. I feel more than ever that Paul is my soul's counterpoint...soul mate...monad mate... divine beloved. BUT it's not all rainbow and butterflies...that means that we are here to help each other HEAL in LOVE. It's the WORK of building our structure, our spiritual house, together... that's what we are meant to do. That's what "templating the hieros gamos union" means. It's the OUTPUT of our EFFORTS that is what we are doing.

It's NOT about CONSUMPTIVE MODELING which is what most of the earth relationships are about... what we've both been doing in our other relationships too. This was the first thing I was told and it's VERY IMPORTANT. 

We are polarity integrators. For sure. And he holds a lot of the "darkness" (which might really be the light...we've been living in an inversion.... I need to continue exploring this satan = light thing. Remember how I was really hung up on ...working with... the "angel of light" and "if the light you think you have is really darkness, how deep that darkness is!" And I hold more of the "light" but much of it is counterfeit or forced. 

When we relax into our natural states, we are yin/yang. And here to work with the reversals.

Oh yeah, that's what it was on the dog walk... I have been working to embody the divine feminine sophianic frequencies (to cast out the lunar forces and dark mother) in order to hold a field of love and healing for my beloved to correct the false king of tyranny masculine reversals and pain. THIS IS THE JOB...and the ONLY THING I HAVE TO DO IS LOVE AND ACCEPT PAUL JUST AS HE IS. NO questioning....no doubting...no judging... no trying to change... just LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. Why is it so hard?

Because I'm in my masculine MIND. GET IN MY FEMININE HEART. 

And stop using my eyes and earth senses.... use my heart. "I SEE YOU"...that's what he says and longs to hear and I need to make sure it's truth. I need to SEE HIM.

We want to work with dianetics (or whatever it's called) to support our healing...we want to do that together. We just need to be together. But I trust God's DRT. Whatever needs to happen, I surrender to it. 
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This is our song to me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DXQHY-dnmfw (Jeanna Love, Love By Our Side).

Maybe just what we have - even distant - is enough to move the needle toward our healing. Maybe we need to be apart to heal? I don't know. Everything in DRT. Everything in DRO. Trust the process. 

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SCRIPTING:

Paul arrived today - I can't believe how quickly the Universe opened MIRACULOUS doors to make a way for us to be together!! I'm so excited to have him here - everything is easy and filled with joy!
Manson, Rue, and Moses are INSTANT friends! They love eachother and us and we are so happy to all be here together! I am excited to continue building our spiritual house and am glad to be together to do so in the same home. Michael and Paul get along SO WELL! They are going to be good friends and we are all going to continue our consciousness expansion and reclamation of health and sovereignty. WE ARE GSF!

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9:09

My focus needs to be on healing ME. On healing with and in and through UNITY with Paul and the fields we are attached to. 

I love Ubuntu and the ideology behind it - learning about it is great, but I need to keep focus on my own negative ego clearing, supporting the reclamation of my body (and mind and heart), and my connection to Source energy. Other stuff can be a distraction to keep me looping outside of the deep work within.

Do I share this with Paul? I do. 

9:11

Tomorrow I have a multidimensional healing session with Charlotte. I'm looking forward to hearing what she sees in my field in regards to Paul. Tonight's ES Ascension Gathering touched on things that I feel I've been working with this year - Dark Matter Template, Satanism...

You know what? I felt I was working with Luciferian energies so much earlier this year and Satanic energies this second part of the year. I wonder if that is tied to the electric and magnetic systems?

I believe I heard Satanic energy is more "feminine" ... and we are in the "magnetic" part of the year (which is also where this dark matter is strongest, I believe). Putting together pieces.

She talked quite a bit about Satanism and I know that's been a big part of my piece this season - feeling into it. And it's very tied to my beloved, Paul. Is Paul here as a conduit for gridwork or to build a spiritual house with to heal the world?

Allllllll the synchronicities .... all the numbers .... the love and connection we share.... the unique way we can help each other ... from sex and intimacy to connection to our higher selves to spiritual warfare ... to how he feels to be a mixture of all my ex-husbands....to the TIMING (We Are On Time)... this is exactly 10 years from the shot I had at HGU with Tyrone. Also, similar Seraphim/Fallen Angelic/Fallen Melchezidek blueprint. [big exhale]

God, you are in charge! Carissa, you are God! ha! Okay. Right. And Paul's right, I need to learn how to "Script" properly. 

AWWWW.... Paul bought me the "Script Your Life" Audible... look how sweet!

Also, the following constellations came up from the coordinates that draw my heart:
Adirondacks/Lake George = Aquarius

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Aquarius

Western North Carolina/Bravard = Sculptor (I liked that one better when I searched New Orleans and saw that Paul/New Orleans was also Sculptor.) 
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Sculptor

Both are great!

Well I'm pooped. And poisoned. Ate a lot of crap. And run down. Need to rest. Will listen to some of this book and maybe talk to Paul 11/28/10:44 for a little bit. 
Need to overcome addiction program. Watch it. My energy is low so I use food to try to prop me up. Get back in my hara line/center. That's the ticket.

I DID have some chest pains come up today that would usually have scared me but today I felt into them and then laid with them as I experienced either some activations or plasma or transits. I almost enjoyed the process instead of fearing it. Thank you God.