Unified Diversity Art Class Exercise

10 minutes of writing:

EIGHT... eight is on my heart and mind these days and I'm thinking that my art work should be an eternal 8 representing the eternal 8D gate made out of dragonflies. We'll see. I was also thinking about working with grids... crystal grids and maybe gridding out a ...taking a stab at gridding out a sphere. Maybe 2D, maybe 4D. Maybe 3D. 

Breathe. Relax. Not getting deep into the heart to let it out. Had a beautiful 2 hours of meditation before this and feeling like we are definitely making progress, but there seems to be much "attack"... or interference...that's a better word... in the field. But as Diana says and as I want to glom on to, there is so much support as well. I do feel very supported. I do feel like I am coming into my own. I feel like there is so much beautiful guidance to help me step into my own divine mission... or step out of my own ego so that I can be a clear light vessel for the spirit of God. 

I liked Ty's word... CLARITY. This is what I feel like I'm getting more and more of. And it comes through conversing with others, but when I talk to others I am sharing my own thoughts and wonder if this is push/pulling. Trying to give them answers... to show them what I know... more to TEACH them what I know... this is DEFINITELY pushing... and I don't want to push anymore. I saw with Alicia and others that it works so much better ... so much more aligned... when I encourage them to go inward. That's the ONLY ANSWER to anything for anyone... go inward, the answers are all right there. For me too. 

But the connections to others help... or feel like it. I like to connect... I like to talk. I love love loved Thursday's conversation with Kirk. I should copy and paste it here... it was amazing... we worked together to bring forth... yes, it was sacred geometry in a way. It was a part of the mirage for his marble. I love Kirk. I appreciate him and am grateful to know him. Both he and Lior have brought me something to my field that is important. The amalgamation (is that the word?) of them is supporting me and I dream of them. I wish I could talk to them more... I WANT WANT WANT but that is the wrong energy...that energy pushes people away... you can't try to GET. That is CONSUMPTIVE MODELING... instead RELEASE and live in the flow. The opposite of how we are trained. We are trained to ... I heard this this morning, maybe on that guy's "self-love" talk...we are trained to ... now I forgot. Something about how we ...nevermind. But we WANT things and we push and live our lives to get it and it separates us from seeing and experiencing that which we already have. 

Is that the case with Michael? In a way. I mean, I see that we have a beautiful life and family in so many ways. But we really do not have the physical connection which I feel is part of God's plan for ...

WHAT?! It's been 10 minutes?? DANG!

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The artwork I did... wanted to do crystal "gridding" but ended up feeling like I was painting with crystals. 

I have come to build a bridge

THIS IS WHAT I'M DOING:
https://youtu.be/eoTX5ff9Ze0

Runs in my head all night... "I have come to build a bridge so come let's build. Build build build build."

I have a couple people in particular that I feel, especially, that I am building a bridge for... I am meant to do this through anchoring my own Sophianic consciousness and connection to Mother through the Daughter Codes. 

These two (Gabriel/Lior and Kirk) appear to be steeped in Luciferian distortions (that which I feel I am here to heal... in me and my Ancestral lines first!) 

And THIS song came up next:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IBFMkt9KGQ

My two heart songs... there are more... but those are the main ones now. Both by Nahko. "Build a Bridge" and "Wash It Away"

This morning I was told to write down "Sit in stillpoint and let universe and all that is unfold around you."

SIT IN STILLPOINT AND LET UNIVERSE AND ALL THAT IS UNFOLD AROUND YOU

Then Le'Anna sent me this video: https://youtube.com/watch?v=tLAZvESoVgI&feature=share
"The Art of Not Trying" on Taoism

Then I was crushed because I am still TRYING to "save" Lior, etc.... I felt I should send him a video with sunshine in it, sending kindness. But it was TRYING. "Today's a good day for my ego to die". <-- lyrics that just sung... exactly.

LET GO. 
Focus on the bridge. 
I AM THE BRIDGE.

I have come to build a bridge. I AM THE BRIDGE. 

Focus on connecting to GOD... then I will be the bridge, the channel, as ChristSophia. I read all the time that Jesus was a channel... I can't remember what word that was, but that's what we are too. A channel to anchor God-consciousness into the earth through our beings by embodying the spirit of ChristSophia. 

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Oh, and here's an interaction between Kirk and I... more me... lol 

We have very good conversations. But this was 11:11 and I took a screenshot and I thought I should keep it.

Another encouraging song from Nahko... the third in a row. "Black as Night" - "I believe in the good things comin'"
https://youtu.be/lkGBLLjAXEA

11:23

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I don't think I've breathed for two hours. Lol. Kidding, but WOW it's been intense! Talked to Gabe for 30 minutes which was ... yeah... connection and healing and stuff... he doesn't see what I see. I thought he could but he doesn't. That's okay. He's working with his own stuff but has allowed his consciousness to partake in these other projects... his earth consciousness just isn't invested in it which is fine. We still were working those parts together. Or he's lying...could be a mixture of both. Lying to himself of course. We are on this same team... genetic equals... not HG partners, but GE, yes. Like Rosemary and Misha and we can accomplish a lot if we talk with our team members. Sophia and Kirk and Gabriel-Lior too. Lior is quite a ways back...not trying to sound value judgementY, but he keeps choosing ego over the truth. I can't force him. If he comes to the Light, then I will meet him here. But it's his choice.

But Kirk and I as we've merged to work together, big understandings are coming out of it... I mean, I have lots of the understandings already, but they are firing like pistons in a race car engine! And I'm hoping that it helps him nail in some of his understanding. We just had a very big intense chat in Telegram. I like Kirk a lot. 

And Sophia wrote to check in and told me she has accessed some new timelines related to the East Coast which is fascinating. Felt related to the "building a bridge"... and she thanked me. But it's this bridge anchoring Sophianic frequencies that is the work and what will actually be of use. 

THIS IS MY JOB. Build a bridge out of Sophianic frequencies embodying Aquaelle, the Daughter codes. GOD!! THANK YOU!!! This is overwhelmingly amazing!! 1:36

I'm so behind... need to do Veronica's card and be done with that. I haven't even looked at my email much. Or finished my actual Glossary pick (Before the Fall of Humanity)... I read the Emerald Tablets one but need to finish this. GOD!! THANK YOU!!

It IS the Higher Selves...God Selves and guidance coming through these connections - Sophia, Gabriel, Gabriel, and Kirk... and Rosemary and Misha. Probably Laura and Candice and Melanie when she feels like it... this is moving the needle. Healing the Solar Michael (and Michael Didier is the micro to the macro that I'm watching). GOD!! This is amazing!!!

This is the mountaintop experience that I had from 2010-2011. I need to stay clear of negative ego ... clear this sucker... and STAY UP HERE!! Please God. 

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I'm building a bridge for Gabe too, to get out of the Twilight Master mentality. 

And for me to get out of my dang negative ego and all the embodiments that I'm bridging the gap for. Twilight Master, FKOT, DM. Note as I am purged of the Lunar Matrix I embody Aquaelle, the Daughter codes. 

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Is it these rocks that have come? These friends have come to teach and support me! HOLY MOLY! Thank you God!!13:43

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2:32 "We're On Time, I am on your side" - Nahko

2:33 Now this Rebel Heart belongs to you

All the songs are blowing up my heart!!! 

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5:53

What's crazy is that I haven't heard this song in FOREVER...it reminded me of Gabe... Eye of the Storm (featuring Gabe Real)... the REAL GABE... and it came up for me at 19:11 today. (After talking to him for the first time since April.) 
No crazy. Just watch. There is a connection. It's our HS (higher selves). May God's will be done through us. May peace be with him. (And me!)

Today connected with:

Especially and most powerfully, KIRK. Also Gabe, Misha, and texted with Sophia, Le'Anna a smidge, and Laura a message.

Journaled, processed, finished all I can do for Veronica's card. She is giving it back to her designer which is great, and 11:43, 11:44. Malai Post. Two Manifests with Michael. One had a very strong message in it for me but now I forgot, darnit!

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posted:

Wow! This thread! Nudged to check in two times today and am just getting around to it. Feeling to share from last night’s dreamstate…

1. ALL through the night…literally…. I kept hearing (a  song ) “We’ve come to build a bridge, to build a bridge. Build build build build…” It’s been singing in my heart all week but the last two nights LOTS…and last night pretty much overlaid everything.
2. At one point we were standing outside a Rainbow City. We toured it. 
3. I repeated “I am fully connected, supported, protected in God’s eternal light”. (I don’t know if I was scared and that’s why I wrote that. I was obviously saying it in response to something, just not sure what.)
4. Lots of number codes… lots of messages about staying rooted in Sophianic consciousness to hold the field.
5. Called to be present and work with Clear Metatronic Code meditation. (Often I will start meditations through the night and just allow myself to sleep but I had to actually stay with that one all the way through.)
6. I had a dream the night before about a tornado - it formed really quickly in what looked like clear weather. Last night I had a dream snippet about someone opening a tornado shelter or bunker in a grassy field for us to get in.
7. I've got some strong connections in my field right now, especially California and New York are feeling important. I feel very strongly that I'm supposed to hold the connections to the elementals...this Mother energy... to bridge the gap for these beloveds living under the Luciferian cloud. The number and (miraculous) nature of these rocks, trees, bugs, birds, and more that have shown up to chat and anchor frequencies with me has been mind-blowing. Heart-blowing. 
8. This morning upon waking I was encouraged to write: “sit in stillpoint and let the universe and all that is unfold around you.”  Seemed pretty important. When I turned on my phone, I saw that my friend had sent me this video on “Taoism: The Art of Not Trying”: 

I thought that was interesting considering Eddie’s seeing Sun Tzu. This video references Lao Tzu a lot and it’s 13:13 minutes long… feels aligned and supportive for what I’m feeling called to do (which is to anchor the  Daughter Codes  and build a bridge). 

Kelly, I just want to say I’m so sorry that happened to you! Something like that happened to me in January - it was like I was shot/radiated… beamed from a nearby "tower of terror"! Shocking and really messed me up. Glad you are recovering! 

Much love to all. Thank you for sharing this update and all the beautiful prayers and support and art and love. It’s honor to be here with you guys! Couldn't have picked a better team!! 

Love,
Carissa

Learning so much

1:23

What a life. So much education in the night. I got woken at 444 again with information. And suggested to do a very powerful meditation (Reclaiming Christos Body) which I did just now again. 

Kirk is turning out to be very interesting....an interesting relationship. I appreciate him and am glad we are friends. I like the way we talk to each other and how direct he is and how he calls me on my crap. 

The Lior thing has turned out to be a tremendous gift to help me release the dregs of Tyrone and understand what happened a little better. He was steeped in Luciferian influence and I took it on in the flesh and wasn't ready, not to mention the fact I was steeped in Lunar forces and Dark Mother (with the intent to address FKOT and Rod repair, really).

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In the last few months I've been drawn to my wedding finger a lot. You know how you kind of feel for your ring with your thumb? I keep doing that and missing it, subconsciously. Last time I saw Dr. Puja she said there was something with that finger too (she's super intuitive). 

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Oh I woke today after lots of lessons in the night, knowing that Gabriel/Lior ISN'T my HG divine partner... I doubt it anyway... but he IS my beloved brother and I AM here to help him. But the consumptive modeling energy is NOT helpful... the "fill my void" energy. No. That's NOT what I'm here to do. That's what the Red Cube wants me to do to blow us up. This is a very important mission to reclaim my brother from the reversal he's stuck in. And God and HE will have to work it out. I just need to stand by and be available in case I'm needed. That's it. I've done and said what I need to. 

I did send Gavriel this earlier...sent at 11:54

I was sitting in my hammock in the sun thinking how grateful to God I was for you. In just a few conversations, you helped me heal, understand, and integrate the traumatic experience I had with our brother Tyrone. It’s dissolved now and I’m free. I have lots more work to do but that was a big piece and necessary to be relieved of as I walk through the Lion’s Gate as Heir to the Throne. (A collective “Heir” - this is the Messiah... it’s a gestalt . It’s Israel... AM Israel Melchezidek pure/diamond hearted beings.) Anyway, this is what we can do as siblings, as children of God. Lior didn’t even have to be involved- just the Higher Selves of both of us coming together helped me to remember more of who I AM and heal. So as I was thinking about this and how it’s such a blessing to be able to hold space and what I get to do (with and for others too...these are mission assignments) and this song came on and I felt nudged to share it because this is how I feel about you, my brother. https://youtu.be/61Wm_qlVD4Q

Ps. I have no expectations that you respond. We are working and connected on a spiritual plane and that is enough. But if Lior could benefit from an ear or another point of view (because that’s what I’m meant to do - I’m a mediator and balancer and sometimes have to play devils advocate to trigger another way to look at things. But sometimes I just listen ... probably need to do more of just listening and trust the energy and spirit to do the balancing. Yes. That, Carissa!) Anyway, just want to be sure you know that as much as I keep talking to you, you don’t need to respond... it’s part of what we’re working out in the spiritual planes (which is also part of planetary reclamation and soul retrieval). Wild, I know. But this is what we signed up to do and why we came here and we were made for it. You took on a HUGE mission/project and I send all my love and support for your success.

1:44 

Today's Daily Glossary Pick is SOOOO GOOD: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Spiritual_Warfare

So aligned. I pulled it up at the same time Kirk was writing to me about Darkness. Just watch. Discern.

Oh! My 4:44am note was about Lior and noting "he is like a counterpart - another aspect of my own soul. In many timelines."

I talked about how I was looking at him and us as native americans and other tribes. Oh man. This whole things is so good. I yammered on a lot. Maybe I'll type it out.

4:44am daaang, woken and nudged - seeseesee - to write this. Dreaming of Lior.
noting he is like a counterpart- another aspect of my own soul
In many timelines.
As native americans, I was just looking at him/us. And other tribes.
So commitment to...helping...I feel bad about that term... "help is the sunny side of control" but it's helping, serving ME.
not doing is as STS...of I shouldn't- don't want to- It's been a following of my soul_
just trying to see and be honest. becuase is it me trying to get a re-do w/Tyhrone and to heal and feel that love again? Yes, that too.
I would love him but we aren't compatible. Even if/when he is healed in 5 years - the "home and family" piece is huge.
I'm the one that I love.
Oh. but he is me.
We are All.
God will send a Krystic HG partner.
Lior is "deeds" and a brother and oversoul extension and connection to support the grids and recon/infogathering mission to check on what's happened to our family. He'll get out too. It's a big one...and it's an honor to hold space for this powerful being.
Is "powerful" the Thoth Luciferian signature? Why do I like it?
Strong? Strength? Faith?
I like his tenderness and humor and love for others and sensitivity too.
I think he's handsome and smart.
I don't like the technology piece.
I need to anchor Mother energy and support him through prayer and listening. That's it. 
There is no "future" for us... and don't think of future anyway. Be here now. 

 

5:10 Whoa- this "Reclaiming Christos Body" med (I pulled it just now) is perfectly addressing this and explaining what I'm doing (can't read word) the collective Ancestral and/or something else- mindslides
this is so perfect and helpful. Thank you God!
I pulled and went to sleep with "Breaking Bondage Loops" and now this! Wow! (I did run the clearing neg form between too...sometime in the night.
LISTEN. and maybe do this later.
"Beloved let go of ego self."
"Beloved let go of fears and choose."
etc.
5:13 "release fear of darkness.
"fear of being in the void."
This is so perfect! God!! Whoaaaahhh!
This is all...Lior too... part of my Lion's Gate upgrade.
Thank you God!!!
and hopefully talking to Gabe will close that chapter. But its all for my soul's evolution and these are soul aspects!
mind blown 5:15
8:44 (?)... could be 8:14.
We communicate in pictures in our natural state - indigos and starseeds anyway. that's why its so effective to speak that way with Caden and Misha and I. (Corie showed me this.)
I dreamed a couple times of this .gif to send to Lior but I don't remember what it was. But this was an important lesson.
"We've come to build a bridge to build a bridge. Build build build"... Nahko 
in my head. This is the work.
Build a bridge.

I see now. those reversal luciferian distorted men - Tyrone and Lior - are ANTI-HG partners. Darkness, not Light. Look at the difference - feel the difference between Michael. Even Joe was a true partner- just damaged (like me) but Krystic.
Tyrone and Lior's energy signatures are black. Oh, but...well...when I did the test...Tyrone was that darkest of blacks. I thought Lior was white /a match. I just did it again and it's invisible.
I think we are Indigos and have both light and dark consciousness....who wins? The one you feed. Anyway, these are NOT my partner. I AM my partner first. And when the real deal shows up, it will not be forced and or involve push/pulling... I will just be wrapped in rainbows. Not tornados!
This is all a lesson to help me. Last healing and purge of Tyrone. And also to help brother Lior. And also to support the grids in NYC and the FKOT purge and help awaken a sleeping dragon.
An honor. Don't get caught up in it. this isn't your divine union partner. Not as he is. This is dangerous energy but you came here for this. You're equipped. Just work your tools. And remember HE has to do the work for himself. If he does, he can get himself out. Remember for you, people threw down ropes but YOU had to climb out.

That's it. 

So I've landed on, and feel strongest about the fact that both Tyrone and Lior are brothers, family, and even aspects of my own soul. I am no longer assigned to Tyrone and what I've seen seems like it's a really dire situation. But I release him. And pray to God to save his soul and know he will.
With Lior, I DO feel assigned to him. He is my brother and potentially has been my lover in past lives - I feel warmth all over when I say that...love... so that must be true. But his programming this life as well as all he's taken on seems to me that he's not a candidate for this life as a partner, but he IS family and he IS assigned to me to pray for and serve. Even this that I'm doing, trying to figure it out, helps him. Because if I can see clearly and remove the negative ego overlays, I can be a compassionate witness and the eyes of God who can then accurately send him what he needs. There are teams and teams and teams working on this. It's not just us.

So are our energy templates merged? Or is this just a mixture of mission briefings, holographic inserts, and psychic attack that I have to wade through? Maybe that. Probably that. 

Was my energy template merged with Gabe? Feels like it. Was it from an "error" in un-HGS shielded session space? I don't know. But the result was big spiritual movement - yes attacks, but also purges, downloads, and planetary gridwork. 

It's done now though so that's what matters. But I do want to know how it works! 

"I release control and surrender to the flow of love, that will heal me." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HdIEfWC0xA

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Did I tell you that Michael asked me not to go to his class anymore? The week before last. I was about to tell him I didn't want to go but felt I needed to wait and be quiet and eventually he told ME. This was important for it to come from him. I release control and surrender to the flow...

This is a most miraculous time of metamorphosis! Lots butterflies and bees and birds showing up to support me. Today so many birds.... saw a hawk, and vulture, and cardinal, and happy swooping dancing birds. And soooo many dragonflies!

Release control and surrender to the flow.

Remember today's Glossary Pick - SPIRITUAL WARFARE. Watch and learn.
Also the "suggested for today" was so good too ... I accidentally lost it yesterday when I switched screens and was bummed and God gave me the same one today!! Thank you God! 

"These black forces leading back to the parallel black hole system are spinning misinformation to Light Workers or vulnerable people generally getting them to attack others to play out victimizer dramas to breed extreme confusion, chaos and paranoia at every level. For some people it's very hard to place their trust anywhere at this time because these distortions and deceptions are very heavy with an agenda to create chaos so people cannot tell what is real or what is false. This is a gas lighting manipulation technique to destroy the inner spiritual compass or the heart guidance of the people. Please pay attention and see this working in the mainstream. If you can see it when it’s playing out you can clear it, you can move around it so it does not impact you."

"I firmly believe that the planet in its current state will catalyze a lot more people, a lot more males into spiritual emergency and this concerns me greatly for those people that do not have a strong, loving presence or compassionate female presence or anchor or in the ascension or spiritual awakening awareness. In this phase I especially feel that the male aspects of this Earth desperately need the prayer and spiritual power, the real unconditional love and empathy of the feminine aspects of the Holy Mother to help strengthen and support them through a very difficult phase." 

"Please do not let this overwhelm you but be informed. Pay attention to the people around you as you may as well be able to help them. Awareness and Spiritual connection protects you and protects others around you. Please know that as you pray, as you consecrate your body to God, as you shield yourself, as you commit to GSF and Cosmic Sovereign Law in the Christ Consciousness this puts a damper on their ability to interfere."

"As a GSF being you have rights to repeat and command the Laws of God in service to the greater good and with your clear consent you are powerful to claim other beings as free under Human Divine Rights under God's Universal Laws. All humans have this right but they do not understand it so you, in many cases can act as their representative if you view them being harmed, trapped or enslaved by these forces without their direct knowledge."

 https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Spiritual_Warfare

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3:03 4:44 

Kirk pointed out the 444 to me, which I might have seen myself but he said it first. He's freaking me out. Yesterday he said I was his only friend. Today he said "we are one". Which we are. But he's high and on a bad trip right now. Again, genetic equal, we're here working this piece together. We have distortions. He's got a vendetta against Lisa and he could be trying to dark portal through me to get to her. But he does also genuinely appear to like to talk to me...or at me... or whatever. I just need to be careful. SEE THE MASSIVE STORM COMING?? Be careful. Take cover. God has your back. You're safe tucked into ChristSophia I AM. I love you. 

5:22 and 5:23 Kirk threw his weed away. 
I opened the most incredible care/gift package from Rosemary. I'm almost in tears over all this magic.
She sent me this beautiful bird gourd with a strand 

Multiple personalities or maybe not

 Sent to Gabriel:
I woke this morning feeling I should share my experience with you. 

I used to feel that I was going crazy as I had multiple “voices” speaking to me. I kind of liked it… I would stand in the shower and have full-on conversations between people. In the past I’ve fallen into a state of confusion because I would have what was similar to the traditional “devil/dark angel” and “God/light angel” both trying to influence me. Now, looking back, I understand that part of my energetic architecture is to hold these two polarized consciousnesses… one is more associated with Annunaki and Nephilim consciousness… Fallen Melchezidek Angelic consciousness. The other is Oraphim, not-fallen angelic consciousness. They manifested in my life as polarized experiences… I was both empathic AND narcissistic (using those as catch-all terms for the consciousness associated with it). 

As I’ve been working with closing up the tears and weaponized portals into my lightbody, I’ve been gaining stability and mental cohesion. I am a very intelligent being naturally but I’ve been attacked and blown up since I was a child to keep me from fulfilling what I came here to do. 

I pray for single-soul occupancy… just the being known as Carissa as the vessel… she is the “body”… she represents the elemental consciousness, including the earth-related mind and emotions, etc. and this vessel is designed to be embodied/merged with the Holy Spirit… my HIGHER SELF which is One in GOD. So there are technically two of me… the “me” of the earth plane, the one that has walked in this body as this body, as my inner child on this earth in this incarnation who is connected to the TRUE ME, the I AM.

So now I recognize this whole exercise on earth is about bringing my HIGHER SELF, my GOD-SELF (that which is ONE in GOD) INTO the being of Carissa… to embody Carissa in order to anchor SOURCE LIGHT on this earth as a kind of acupuncture point. 

Does this make sense? Can you relate? 

1:44

More powerful dreams last night. I see now, again, this is the merge of our architecture. This IS what happened with Gabriel Aaron and maybe that's what he's doing to increase his reach... and maybe there are some insidious Twilight Master tendencies to try to feed on the "power" that comes from this... merging with... is it vampiric?... people's... women's .... fields. 

I believe I am strengthened by being connected to Lior's field... this is what a HG union is... it allows us to have more reach, more power. And I pray that this helps him gain more spiritual support and divine feminine support to help him repair himself. 

So if I remain in his field... if this sticks, then could it spiral me down? Yes. I have to, number one, shield. This is the difference between 10 years ago and with Tyrone. I didn't have any of the context or support that I have now as my sister Laura or Rosemary pointed out. I need to, from this place in nature, reallllllly anchor the Sophianic consciousness and and if we are united the way that we are, even if he doesn't know it (like Gabe Aaron maybe didn't know it either), it will support his field for healing. This is "awakening sleeping dragons"... this is the crack to allow light and healing in.

I anchor love. I heal him in love and his presence heals me as well, but maybe not so much now as there are some distortions and things like anger that may really cause a problem. But MAYBE those things... the anger, etc. aren't really attached to his field... his GABRIEL (HIGHER SELF) field... those might be. Lior distortions and maybe since we aren't together in the flesh, as long as I can maintain neutrality and compassionate witness with discernment, then they don't have to affect me.  

As we are not married or together... the flesh selves, that merge of our inner children/lower selves are not able to spin off the distortions. I think that's where the problem can come in... his flesh/earth anger or narcissism or addiction patterns would effect me in my flesh/earth self. But since we don't have those cords, then I can just serve his higher self and try to help him from here.

The challenge is that my being is programmed to WANT to be with his earth being. We are partners and it's natural to want to be UNITED. But the only way to stay out of the pit is to support him out of it... like Sophia was talking about yesterday... be there caring about him and compassionately witnessing as he walks around in the dark but trusting that HE CAN GET HIMSELF OUT. God will show me if/when there is something to do, but I need to have discipline and patience and allow him to work this out for himself. This is love. 

"I've loved you for 1,000 years and I'll love you for 1,000 more"...  it is what it is. This is the rescue mission. I'm not the savior, but I am a lover of your soul and here to support you saving yourself. I love you beloved Gabriel-Lior. 

2:11

So many amazing dreams. I love being connected to my brother in this way. I wish he could experience it too but I don't think he has the consciousness to do so. If Gabe didn't how could he?

I sent another text to Gabe ... maybe there's enough space now that he could talk through this with me. This is big. 

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Definitely getting lots of confirmations in the last couple months that keeping a SABBATH is important. Be sure to do that, no matter what. It feels very right. I don't think it HAS to be Saturday... I'm feeling TUESDAY...but it's taking a day off from work and spending in order to rest with God... I feel it's right. 

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I have come to build a bridge, so come let's build: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoTX5ff9Ze0

I was going to follow up with this to Gabe but I think I won't. But it's important to me so I'll save it here ... God, you can nudge him to respond if it's Your will:

I will pay you for your time. Please talk to me about this. Understanding your perspective and experience is very important… we are working with architecture, it’s part of our mission assignment and I’ve got some insight that if you DON’T understand it yet, it could help take the fear out of it. There’s no fear. And I have a new person that I’ve got this architectural merge that I’m working with…same deal, where it’s for an assignment. And I want to understand it more… I want to find out if you have this with multiple people at any given time and if that is okay and how to keep it from infiltrating the being/inner child. 

I’m not a crazy stalker. I’m your sister. I know what it looks like, but it’s only because I’m digging around to understand all this and I’m sorry for the discomfort but the only way out is through. (If this is still bugging you which is the only reason I can think that you don’t respond.) 

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Luciferian Infiltration of the Family of Michael

This dark or reversal code infiltration is what forces the phenomena of Fallen Angelic Races to live within a distorted dimension and damaged and violent blueprint of itself. The phenomena of demonic entities and its growing Luciferian energies of Imposter Spirit is a result of this distortion from the Luciferian Rebellion.

Also, when the Seraphim hybridized with the Reptilian - incredible genetic damage was suffered. The original hybridization attempt was overlit by the Elohim and was intended to actually heal the genetic anomalies bringing more balance to make rehab of the Reptiles possible.

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Family_of_Michael

This is very important. This whole thing is for you to learn from. Gabriel is so loved, God sent me to love him and watch him and be with him for all these years... 5 years so far. But I had to get out of the pit and distortions in order to help him. I can't help Tyrone... he doesn't want help and there's too much between our personality selves so our Higher Selves get drowned out in the elemental emotional body... the 2D damage. WOW GOD... thank you for teaching me so fast!!! 

But if I can bear with the discomfort of loving Gabriel-Lior ... it's God's love and the power of divine connection. But I need to keep healing my own heart... my own 2D-4D split and other architecture repair... 

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Heard back from Gabe. Said he can talk next week. Sent him $50 and asked if he could talk when they were driving that I'd talk to both of them... but whatever... just didn't want to open a session field, just to talk as friends/sibs. So we'll see. Probably next week I guess. Of course closer to Lion's Gate. Nutty. This whole thing.

But we are doing big work. All of us. Rescuing the birds. This was my dream last night too... we were working out of a cramped van and collecting birds and trying to save them from disintegrating at the neighbor's house. There was one that apparently got out and I heard a little peep from under a blanket on a chair that someone might have been sitting on... anyway, I got the little baby bird but it looked like a baby black dragon... I comforted it and brought it back to the other birds, I think. 

I also dropped a baby into a hot tub and it sunk to the bottom ... hot, sinking/drowning...not the best for a baby. I think it was okay, but that's bad news. This may be what I'm doing to Lior. He's not ready for that kind of heat and he can't swim and isn't big enough yet for that hot tub. 

God, thank you for all the insights...what a LIFE!!! 

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6:33

Added to post to Gabriel:

Lior shared his understanding about you with me today. I appreciated it. Holding LOVE for you both. “I’ve loved you for 1,000 years and I’ll love you for 1,000 more”

https://youtu.be/rtOvBOTyX00

This song came up yesterday and I when I heard it I almost started crying because it felt so personal. I feel strongly we are from the same oversoul family and have known each other a very very long time.

MANY are here to help untangle and free our family members from the snares that we got into. We had no idea that things would turn out like this when we agreed to come here. But we are being freed. 

I failed our brother Tyrone because I didn’t hold my own field and got sucked down into the pit that he was trapped in but you contacted me exactly 10 years later (almost to the day) and it feels like God is giving me another run at this. 

I’ve been mourning over “mission failure” regarding him and finally, 6 years later, I released Tyrone and am in the process of restoring my organic Diamond Heart (out of the Black Heart reversal that it was in from heartbreak). And also to help repair the damage that has happened in many of the timelines/dimensional planes where that - the divine union - has been targeted. 

This is all way too much for Lior and out of scope for you, but wanted to express it and explain myself. I NEED to be transparent because I can’t fall into that prison of pain again. 

I have a hunch that I may have also “agreed” or “contracted” to go through that experience with Tyrone in order to experience the pit of pain and fear (hell) so that I could learn how to get out and so that I could help my brothers and sisters out too. There is an agenda on this earth right now where They are trying to blow us up… make us implode… trap us in fear until we surrender our souls to feed the Controllers. 

I’m here to support the reclamation and resurrection of those written off as dead. They are not. These are precious and beloved souls and we are here to free them in and through LOVE.

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So how am I feeling?
EXHAUSTED.

What am I thinking? Luciferian overlays. This is a game... and I am a chess piece (can I please have a horse?). I think that I'm connected to the California and New York grids for whatever is going on there. I think that it is no accident that I am friends with Kirk and Lior and I need to just chill. Leave Lior alone for a while. 

The BIG ENERGY that was with it is maybe normalizing...but there's been so much energy work today as I work with this that I'm just depleted. But feel like I'm getting a handle on all of this.

I think it is a "second chance" and that this time I must remain rooted to Source. My declaration of intention is to serve my Source. I commit to serve my Highest Power, fully totally and completely.

If I never talk to Gabriel/Lior again, I will feel okay because I feel our teams connected and that an energetic pathway was created for the time that it is needed... if and when that comes about. I have a better understanding of him and what has happened to him. Recon complete. His higher self divulged the prophesies and miracles that he experienced to my higher self who has reported them to God who knows who sent those messages.

I have deep love for him. And Misha is right... or may be right... that the dreams could be holographic inserts. I think the little baby black dragon could be real, but not sure. I DO command my space before bed and he was with me strongest in the earliest part of the night in the storms which is where I do get a lot of connection... so I can NOT apply judgment. Just keep swimming.

Stay rooted in Source. Keep working my tools. Be love. Be available. Respond. And let it all unfold.

There is nothing I want from Lior... or Gabriel. I thought I wanted them to fill my need for a divine partner but right now he is in a very distorted ... INVERTED place and he will need to get himself out. I can only be a neutral and compassionate witness. Right now... I haven't been neutral... I HAVE been "pushing" and I can't. That's Dark Mother and we're trying to perpetuate and continue the FKOT behavior ... the opposite of what we're meant to do.

I've loved you for 1000 years and I'll love you for 1000 more...  my brother. 

Piercing the veil. Clear the distortions. Clear the overlay. Clear the Red Cube. 

I'll talk to Gabe tomorrow about the architecture merging and holding a field. What is his take on that?

My partner will be loving, kind, and most importantly KRYSTIC. I think Gabriel is meant to be but maybe it's not for this life. It MUST be. He was PUSHED into this incarnation...forced into his mother's womb....and he's got all these stories and powers and...  

It's not for me. It's HIS journey, HIS story and God can do anything. I'm responsible for my part. Be a friend. And do the clearings. That will help more than anything. Shield him every day... twice a day. And do clearings. This IS a reason to be close to his architecture. Don't be deflated so that you eschew your job. Thank you. 

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Yeah addiction matrix... addicted to screens and social media to see who contacted me. I'm full and exhausted from a lot of energy work/moving through. Long conversations with Laura, Rosemary, Misha, Page, Lior, and I guess that's it... but that's a lot. 4 hours there alone. Oh and two "talks" with Michael too. This morning we talked about patriarchal domination and tonight about Solar Michael. There was more to both of those and God gave me more understanding about them as we talked...that's the benefit of yammering this stuff out. But I keep hoping that he and I can make it work and he said he keeps hoping I'll change too....change my mind and not follow God and look to him as god... no. I believe in Unity. He believes in heirarchy and the man is in charge... which, for me, is fine if people come to that in unity...but this is the FKOT overlay... demanding respect because he is the authority and everyone else just better get behind him. That is not the Way. It's about unity. And until we have that corrected (and I have DM and FKOT and lunar distortions to purge yet), we just won't be aligned. Also he made fun of my believe in God... "including MRS God?" (Like, I THINK NOT!)... it's fine. I just feel comfortable here.

I just need to remain faithful to my work. I AM my FIRST PRIORITY. These other projects are for "fun", but I can't even do them well if I"m not aligned. And that's it. 

My eyes are crossing, I'm tired. 

I had some sort of void or Luciferian numb anger type of thing come over me tonight during and after dinner. I just had to watch it. I felt bad because it made me not want to be nice to Michael. I'm just exhausted and need rest and integration. This is a LOT. I feel pretty neutral now... walking with Sioux and taking care of chickens and CE helped. 

The most important relationship I have is the one with ME. We've been chatting here and working things out but it's been very mental. We need to have some LOVE and EMOTION time... just BE together. So we'll do that in the mirror. And maybe some clearing and meditation and BED. :)

Elephant, Black Aura, Lior, etc.

 9:08

Here's the message I sent Lior:

There's more to hear and more to process. The more you can clear the negativity out of the fields, the more good it will do both of you. 

I was walking this morning and thinking about how the same thing happened where this spirit of being "enemies" just came upon Tyrone too. In the end I think he was going to kill me - the day he left I had just gotten out of the hospital and was not well and was sleeping and he gave me a kiss on the forehead and left. I didn't think it was real for a little bit..the (delusional) calm moments before the storm of raging emotion...abandonment and betrayal... hit me. But I noticed there was a baseball bat sitting against the wall right outside the room I was sleeping in. I could never prove it but I just have a hunch that was what it came down to. I had pushed him earlier that day (rage was a side-effect of one of the medicines they, including Tyrone, forced me to take in order to get out of the hospital). We were just broken and it was just horrible. Anyway, I remember the enemy patterning and see now how it was a ploy to break us apart.

Heirogamic divine unions are so targeted because the good that we can do as a unified couple is exponentially more powerful so the enemy wants to tear us apart. 

I can't wait until this guy that I know publishes this timeline that he's been working on. He's a powerful intuitive being, a brother too. I want to share it with you badly. But I suspect that maaaaybe this could apply to you and Stefani and maybe you will be reunited and married in 2024. 

We are purging lunar forces from the earth right now in a big way. The reversal "False Father" and "Dark Mother" energies that have been destroying the divine human blueprint through reversals (not to mention control and manipulation)... they are being addressed. We are addressing them as Guardians and support staff on the earth. As we heal them in us, they are healed for all humanity. I am a micro for the macro. 

You ARE the Messiah... part of this entity which is the fullness and expression of God, the child of God. The planet belongs to this child. Everyone calls it different things. Am Israel = Messiah = Christ  <-- not Jesus... Jesus and Christ are two separate things. Christ is the annointing and the spirit of the son of God. It's technically Christ-Sophia which is the unified son-daughter of God. Jesus/Yeshua was a man, if he existed.

I like to think he did. Anyway... this is what we're doing, reclaiming all the pieces...the framents...the souls... that are ONE in Messiah.

There's a high overview there.

I wish I could take care of your dog during the day...sweet girl. What's her name? Animals and nature have been the biggest contributors to the healing of my soul. I love them so much. Watch for birds too, see which ones come to you or talk to you or that you catch a glimpse of. They have messages. All of nature is constantly talking to us... we just have to listen.

I remember that some bird came to you on your porch one time... did it die or was it sick? There was something.... 

You know I watched the whole story with Stefani... I've been a witness to it. I remember seeing you see her outside your building or the park and you would just light up. This was when you were friends. Then I watched you fall in love and get engaged and then I watched you get married. I even "attended" your wedding - you livestreamed it, I believe.

I have also been watching the change in her... her grapple with her own identity and the structures of the world. (I'm friends with her on social media.)

I didn't know that years later I'd have to admit that I'm some sort of stalker, ha! (I'm kidding... I'm playing... this was really just in front of me and I see now that it is because I am a compassionte witness and family member here to serve in this capacity. To heal you, my divine siblings, and to heal myself.)

You are important to me and I care very much about you. I know you are being strengthened and pray for you to have peace in the midst of it all. 

End of rant. Ha!

That's a LONG day at work. What do you do?

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I had a crazy dream about him. First I was on a walk with Moses and a tornado was coming. We were over near Roberts house and there was nowhere to go to get away from it. It was coming toward us and then the dream switched and I was in that same place and in a tiny little cinder block open building with Lior and we were going to sit down at a table but we were bantering and I was being funny and sat on the ground and he threw the table behind him and then came to sit in front of me and kind of fell to the side and I fell into him and we were like passionately drawn to each other like magnets. 

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Lisa talked about this last night: "Anger creates holes in your aura which allows demonic or incarnate possession and debris "

Tyrone had so much anger too. I just couldn't hold or help it. Hold it in my field. It made me crazy. Caused me to schitz. 

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Another message to Lior:

Here's a screenshot of the conversation I had with that guy a couple days ago. He told me once that I can share anything he says with anyone so I'm sure this is okay. He's been putting together something that he'll share publicly someday but in the meantime I thought I'd share this. Feels very relevant to my life too. When I first read something he wrote about Gabriel-Michael in April or May something (in the ethers... a spirit or something) literally knocked me upside the head and told me to PAY ATTENTION.

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11:54 11:55

BEAUTIFUL conversation with Sophia Aurora. Touched on many beautiful things... many supportive answers from the Universe came through. One was on Elephants! They are representative of sovereignty and becoming unchained from the lie that we are in captivity and need to work for these tricksters who have declared themselves masters over us. We are much more powerful than them. A call to step into our GSF and into our power. 


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ESF Post:

Today in a conversation with a friend I was given some understanding about Elephants (which I've been asking about). Seems they are representative of sovereignty. Maybe this energetic presence is calling us to become unchained from the lie that we are in captivity, deceived into serving these tricksters who have declared themselves masters over us. In truth we are much more powerful than them. Their trumpet sounds a call to step into our GSF and into our power. 

Thank you to Lisa for the answer on the Lion's Gate in the Ascension Broadcast last night! I never heard of Lion's Gate before this year but is "up" for me. I felt some connection to the magnetic peak (and have even had some dreams of magnets)...I suspected it was related in someway to the GWLG and feminine/staff healing and so appreciated Lisa's insight and explanation! 

In the last couple weeks (could it be since 7/7?) in the mirror I've been seeing what I first thought were black wings, then for a few days I thought it was a black aura, then one day I thought it was a black cloak, then last night I thought it was black wings with a black halo. This morning I landed on it simply being "shadow". All those things can and are a part of that shadow and parts that are coming up for healing. I've spoken at length about my work with the FA consciousness this year and it continues to unfold. I was a little embarrassed and ashamed to admit this "black aura" thing at first but my JOB is to "drag the darkness into the light"... at least that's a big part of why I'm here. And I am the canvas that I have to work with. It's such a varied and intricate and fascinating and beautiful and powerful abstract piece and I'm fortunate to get to work within it. I just remembered the painting I did at this time last year (posted at the end of my first post  here ). It was called "Calibration" and seems to be a good depiction of the canvas I'm working with. (Me.) I don't think there's any black in that painting and maybe there's no black in me either, just overlays, distortions, and wormholes letting it appear to be me to try to trick and trap me. I do not consent. I AM GSF!

Another potential explanation and connection for this black that has arisen:

We have been working with the new magnetism re-configuring matter in the next harmonic structure and that point of origin is held in the  Dark Matter Template  body. This process is all about the Mother principle and the Sophianic body rebuilding, and the daughter codes of Aquaelle are helping to repair and support in the transition of Dark Matter field into higher templating with a new BASE CODE.
ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Aquaelle

I think that's all I'll share for now. I typed out a ton more but I'll save it for another day (or not). Much love to All!

What DIDN'T make the post:

Thank you to Lisa for the answer on the Lion's Gate last night! I never heard of Lion's Gate before this year but is "up" for me. I did know the magnetic peak was upon us and the connection to the Staff and do feel it is related. I usually have my massive density dropping ascension symptom hell in the last few months of the year, but now that I think about it, I was called out of tolerance withdrawl from benzodiazapines in late July 2017 (a nasty cycle where you are dependent on a neurotoxin - in this case klonapin, an anxiety medicine - and you are actually experiencing debilitating withdrawl symptoms at the same time you are taking them....your body requires more and more and more. I guess that's addiction for you. I had been on them for almost 10 years at that point but in late 2016 my body switched from "regular use" to this tolerance withdrawl where I was bedridden with about 20 hours per day of panic attack (feeling on the verge of death) ...it just took me almost a year to figure it out..) Anyway, I think there is a lot of support for healing during this time. 

and:

12:34

God sent a being (in a human body) named Sophia Aurora (whooooahhhh) to walk with me in this season and remind me of Who I AM. I feel really fortunate (as well as amazed and grateful) for all the support. Giant shifts are taking place and I found myself overwhelmed that I was going to "mess up" again. Today my daily pick was https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Second_Death and feel it is very aligned. We are being given opportunities to heal or collapse old timelines and I have been marveling how I am in a situation where I am seemingly being given a "second chance" at the same situation that I was in 10 years ago. My spiritual evolution and many of the anchors are the same. Dark night of the soul in 2009 & 2019....new life and tremendous spiritual support starting January 2010 & 2020... testing and journey in 2011 & 2021... and now there is a person that appears to be from the same monadic extension coming in at exactly the same time for August 2011 & 2021. Both had the same powerful feel and spiritual connection. 

I've been processing and processing and processing the trauma, the blown-to-pieces broken heart resulting in metatronic spiral and anubian black heart from who I was 10000000% sure was an arranged marriage from God which resulted in mission failure. I chose negative ego and the lunar matrix distortions to "help cope" with the tremendous attack we endured. In the end we succumbed to enemy patterning and I have been picking up the pieces for 6 years. I thought they were finally picked up and now this other person stepped into my life in earnest the day that this "Lion's Gate" thing opened ... the other day... after the full moon. I got some strange email out of the blue from who knows who to partake in a personal burn bowl ceremony to symbolize the burning of these 3D constructs related to the lunar matrix and the infiltration on the earth.. it included some ES language as well as other stuff...clearing the damage from vaccines, human trafficking, Ai, etc.... but it felt very aligned and I did my HGS Calibration and then the ceremony. It felt really good.

The next morning I get a message from the higher self of this guy who I have been witnessing for at least 5 years because he reminded me of my first divine partner. I was going to say "the man who broke my heart" but I saw the VV in it and I know his heart was broken too and in his leaving he was just trying to follow God. We were destroying each other instead of healing one another in love as we were meant to. 

Anyway, this similar spirit and feeling is here and it's intense. I'm not sure what God's will is but I need to keep calling on the spirits of Christ and do my best to remain present and aligned with my higher self and see where my negative ego is trying to take me off course. One of the biggest intentions for this time of shadow clearing...this "Lion's Gate"... is to really subdue this negative ego. That will lead to more success embodying ChristSophia which will allow me to be of more use to God and hopefully more success supporting this mission we are on here. 

I DO want a partner. I believe we are more powerful together and can anchor more Light ... just a more fulfilling experience, as Lisa was saying last night. But I don't want to get ahead of myself as I see myself doing. This is my M.O. and this time I'm invoking the Timeline Override Sequence and will/desire to just be a compassionate witness to that which unfolds. No pushing or pulling. This is an opportunity to learn and practice. A second chance. There's nothing to fear. Just allow it to unfold and BE LOVE NOW. And that's it. Easier said than done, of course. 

I told Sophia that I was afraid of failure and she helped me realize that all of these interactions are really interactions with aspects of myself. This person has been brought forth to heal something within me. That's not exactly what she said... maybe not that at all, but that's what I just said and it's true. But she helped me realize that my "mission failure" maybe wasn't a failure or "hell" at all... and it was part of my journey. I DO know I learned so much through it and I believe that it was, in a way, a recognizance mission. So now, if this is a "take 2", a "second chance", a "do-over"...no matter what it leads to, the only part that matters is that I am true to my self. This whole thing is between me and Me and if I can use all things to support the healing, restoration, empowerment, and love of this beloved (me), then maybe I'll be doing something of use on the earth. 

I'm a micro for the macro. Healing myself heals the world. 

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1:21 1:54 1:55 5:53

I just looked through all my old Facebook photos and now feel a little weird. I've been judging myself and it feels bad. But I also see how I haven't been a free-flowing vessel and I see how all the miasma got backed up. I am rarely happy or authentic in those photos.

I do not want to be judgmental anymore. 

I want to be loving and kind. Michael brings this out in me. He's been kind today too... even sent me a video on Christ. I think he wants me to move on, but I also think he wants to keep me but wishes I would just abandon my beliefs. Lior would probably want that too... but it would be my role to hold loving space and allow him to process that. As I need to do with Michael. And all beings.

I am not the same person I was when Lior and Stefani got married either... we are all changing rapidly. I feel this very strong tie to him ... he may be my genetic equal and HG partner, but maybe not. Maybe just GE... and this is bringing up WORK for me to process and surrender. Is this the Red Cube? What was all that stuff in dreamstate? I saw a post on Gavriel's page ... maybe Lior's maybe his about BEING the tornado. Was he the tornado in my dream with Moses? It was forming against me... and was it black/dark? Pay attention to these things. I do NOT want to get into another anti-HG thing. I want ONLY the real deal. Father, Mother, please guide and direct me... please send help to protect me and keep me aligned with my HIGHEST POTENTIAL...the highest path I can take for the bifurcation. 

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No super-great numbers today... no big duplicates. I DID see 16:44 but not technically the 4:44... oh, I did actually... So 444 and Candice talked about City Four Square.

Big talks with Candice (hour), Sophia (hour), and lots of processing and journaling and shared on ESF and got some of V's card done. Processing in my being. Lots of energy work... I was so sick and dizzy... definitely "working"... so come back and stay in neutrality and remain IN CHRISTSOPHIA. I pray for the spirits of Christ to embody - purity, patience, kindness, generosity, discipline, diligence, humility.

I don't want to eat.

I'm not hungry.

Feel it. It's okay.

I don't want to talk to him. His field causes this spin out in biwave. Need to hold neutrality and I can't.

It's not fair to him or Stefani for me to have this kind of feelings. I can't be a neutral compassionate witness with these feelings and dreams. Dang. God. No, I can't and won't "save" him. He has to choose to save himself. And I don't want to be a friend under false guises ... consoling him...blah blah. I DO feel for him and get that horrible pain and pray for healing for his heart and I DO hold a field of love and peace for him. But I can't fake or lie about it. 

Just heard this song playing and it's right on:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00

What am I learning through this? Tyrone and Lior were in the same Monad... My Soul and their Monad are meant to be together and have been... we love each other for all of eternity. I feel it... is it a Red Cube distortion?? It feels so real ... this is my beloved. Is it ALB? God... please help. Read about the ALB thread on ESF.... let's see if there are clues there. This song is so right on... so... just feel into it. I can love him... it's more than him. It's that consciousness... 6:43... it's the Christ to my Sophia... it's the DIVINE UNION. The ripple from my own soul's merge. 

And there are probably others in that Monad that would be better suited and ready for a relationship when the time is right... they would probably be more open to working together... this is what I really need... to have a partner to work together on gridwork with. To LIVE the gridwork together and live in PEACE, HARMONY, and JOY. Not a battle. 

This dear soul has so much more work to do. (As do I.) And he doesn't know it and it's not up to me to show him. I can just hold a field of love. God, you see. Does Gavriel see? 

I did get a message from him at 18:18

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Big head boop. 20:00

To nature I go.

ps. Found this in this journal from 2012 and it's medicine for the soul! So good! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pwe-pA6TaZk&t=82s

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Come back to neutrality and let GOD lead. Let's go back and witness this emotional rollercoaster, ha! We're feeling better now... much more centered. I think the BOOP was an upgrade program to help me cope with the increased frequency to keep me from splitting. I've GOT TO stay strong. I've got such amazing support from our Team!