9:08
Here's the message I sent Lior:
There's more to hear and more to process. The more you can clear the negativity out of the fields, the more good it will do both of you.
I was walking this morning and thinking about how the same thing happened where this spirit of being "enemies" just came upon Tyrone too. In the end I think he was going to kill me - the day he left I had just gotten out of the hospital and was not well and was sleeping and he gave me a kiss on the forehead and left. I didn't think it was real for a little bit..the (delusional) calm moments before the storm of raging emotion...abandonment and betrayal... hit me. But I noticed there was a baseball bat sitting against the wall right outside the room I was sleeping in. I could never prove it but I just have a hunch that was what it came down to. I had pushed him earlier that day (rage was a side-effect of one of the medicines they, including Tyrone, forced me to take in order to get out of the hospital). We were just broken and it was just horrible. Anyway, I remember the enemy patterning and see now how it was a ploy to break us apart.
Heirogamic divine unions are so targeted because the good that we can do as a unified couple is exponentially more powerful so the enemy wants to tear us apart.
I can't wait until this guy that I know publishes this timeline that he's been working on. He's a powerful intuitive being, a brother too. I want to share it with you badly. But I suspect that maaaaybe this could apply to you and Stefani and maybe you will be reunited and married in 2024.
We are purging lunar forces from the earth right now in a big way. The reversal "False Father" and "Dark Mother" energies that have been destroying the divine human blueprint through reversals (not to mention control and manipulation)... they are being addressed. We are addressing them as Guardians and support staff on the earth. As we heal them in us, they are healed for all humanity. I am a micro for the macro.
You ARE the Messiah... part of this entity which is the fullness and expression of God, the child of God. The planet belongs to this child. Everyone calls it different things. Am Israel = Messiah = Christ <-- not Jesus... Jesus and Christ are two separate things. Christ is the annointing and the spirit of the son of God. It's technically Christ-Sophia which is the unified son-daughter of God. Jesus/Yeshua was a man, if he existed.
I like to think he did. Anyway... this is what we're doing, reclaiming all the pieces...the framents...the souls... that are ONE in Messiah.
There's a high overview there.
I wish I could take care of your dog during the day...sweet girl. What's her name? Animals and nature have been the biggest contributors to the healing of my soul. I love them so much. Watch for birds too, see which ones come to you or talk to you or that you catch a glimpse of. They have messages. All of nature is constantly talking to us... we just have to listen.
I remember that some bird came to you on your porch one time... did it die or was it sick? There was something....
You know I watched the whole story with Stefani... I've been a witness to it. I remember seeing you see her outside your building or the park and you would just light up. This was when you were friends. Then I watched you fall in love and get engaged and then I watched you get married. I even "attended" your wedding - you livestreamed it, I believe.
I have also been watching the change in her... her grapple with her own identity and the structures of the world. (I'm friends with her on social media.)
I didn't know that years later I'd have to admit that I'm some sort of stalker, ha! (I'm kidding... I'm playing... this was really just in front of me and I see now that it is because I am a compassionte witness and family member here to serve in this capacity. To heal you, my divine siblings, and to heal myself.)
You are important to me and I care very much about you. I know you are being strengthened and pray for you to have peace in the midst of it all.
End of rant. Ha!
That's a LONG day at work. What do you do?
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I had a crazy dream about him. First I was on a walk with Moses and a tornado was coming. We were over near Roberts house and there was nowhere to go to get away from it. It was coming toward us and then the dream switched and I was in that same place and in a tiny little cinder block open building with Lior and we were going to sit down at a table but we were bantering and I was being funny and sat on the ground and he threw the table behind him and then came to sit in front of me and kind of fell to the side and I fell into him and we were like passionately drawn to each other like magnets.
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Lisa talked about this last night: "Anger creates holes in your aura which allows demonic or incarnate possession and debris "
Tyrone had so much anger too. I just couldn't hold or help it. Hold it in my field. It made me crazy. Caused me to schitz.
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Another message to Lior:
Here's a screenshot of the conversation I had with that guy a couple days ago. He told me once that I can share anything he says with anyone so I'm sure this is okay. He's been putting together something that he'll share publicly someday but in the meantime I thought I'd share this. Feels very relevant to my life too. When I first read something he wrote about Gabriel-Michael in April or May something (in the ethers... a spirit or something) literally knocked me upside the head and told me to PAY ATTENTION.
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11:54 11:55
BEAUTIFUL conversation with Sophia Aurora. Touched on many beautiful things... many supportive answers from the Universe came through. One was on Elephants! They are representative of sovereignty and becoming unchained from the lie that we are in captivity and need to work for these tricksters who have declared themselves masters over us. We are much more powerful than them. A call to step into our GSF and into our power.
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ESF Post:
Today in a conversation with a friend I was given some understanding about Elephants (which I've been asking about). Seems they are representative of sovereignty. Maybe this energetic presence is calling us to become unchained from the lie that we are in captivity, deceived into serving these tricksters who have declared themselves masters over us. In truth we are much more powerful than them. Their trumpet sounds a call to step into our GSF and into our power.
Thank you to Lisa for the answer on the Lion's Gate in the Ascension Broadcast last night! I never heard of Lion's Gate before this year but is "up" for me. I felt some connection to the magnetic peak (and have even had some dreams of magnets)...I suspected it was related in someway to the GWLG and feminine/staff healing and so appreciated Lisa's insight and explanation!
In the last couple weeks (could it be since 7/7?) in the mirror I've been seeing what I first thought were black wings, then for a few days I thought it was a black aura, then one day I thought it was a black cloak, then last night I thought it was black wings with a black halo. This morning I landed on it simply being "shadow". All those things can and are a part of that shadow and parts that are coming up for healing. I've spoken at length about my work with the FA consciousness this year and it continues to unfold. I was a little embarrassed and ashamed to admit this "black aura" thing at first but my JOB is to "drag the darkness into the light"... at least that's a big part of why I'm here. And I am the canvas that I have to work with. It's such a varied and intricate and fascinating and beautiful and powerful abstract piece and I'm fortunate to get to work within it. I just remembered the painting I did at this time last year (posted at the end of my first post here ). It was called "Calibration" and seems to be a good depiction of the canvas I'm working with. (Me.) I don't think there's any black in that painting and maybe there's no black in me either, just overlays, distortions, and wormholes letting it appear to be me to try to trick and trap me. I do not consent. I AM GSF!
Another potential explanation and connection for this black that has arisen:
We have been working with the new magnetism re-configuring matter in the next harmonic structure and that point of origin is held in the Dark Matter Template body. This process is all about the Mother principle and the Sophianic body rebuilding, and the daughter codes of Aquaelle are helping to repair and support in the transition of Dark Matter field into higher templating with a new BASE CODE.
ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Aquaelle
I think that's all I'll share for now. I typed out a ton more but I'll save it for another day (or not). Much love to All!
What DIDN'T make the post:
Thank you to Lisa for the answer on the Lion's Gate last night! I never heard of Lion's Gate before this year but is "up" for me. I did know the magnetic peak was upon us and the connection to the Staff and do feel it is related. I usually have my massive density dropping ascension symptom hell in the last few months of the year, but now that I think about it, I was called out of tolerance withdrawl from benzodiazapines in late July 2017 (a nasty cycle where you are dependent on a neurotoxin - in this case klonapin, an anxiety medicine - and you are actually experiencing debilitating withdrawl symptoms at the same time you are taking them....your body requires more and more and more. I guess that's addiction for you. I had been on them for almost 10 years at that point but in late 2016 my body switched from "regular use" to this tolerance withdrawl where I was bedridden with about 20 hours per day of panic attack (feeling on the verge of death) ...it just took me almost a year to figure it out..) Anyway, I think there is a lot of support for healing during this time.
and:
12:34
God sent a being (in a human body) named Sophia Aurora (whooooahhhh) to walk with me in this season and remind me of Who I AM. I feel really fortunate (as well as amazed and grateful) for all the support. Giant shifts are taking place and I found myself overwhelmed that I was going to "mess up" again. Today my daily pick was https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Second_Death and feel it is very aligned. We are being given opportunities to heal or collapse old timelines and I have been marveling how I am in a situation where I am seemingly being given a "second chance" at the same situation that I was in 10 years ago. My spiritual evolution and many of the anchors are the same. Dark night of the soul in 2009 & 2019....new life and tremendous spiritual support starting January 2010 & 2020... testing and journey in 2011 & 2021... and now there is a person that appears to be from the same monadic extension coming in at exactly the same time for August 2011 & 2021. Both had the same powerful feel and spiritual connection.
I've been processing and processing and processing the trauma, the blown-to-pieces broken heart resulting in metatronic spiral and anubian black heart from who I was 10000000% sure was an arranged marriage from God which resulted in mission failure. I chose negative ego and the lunar matrix distortions to "help cope" with the tremendous attack we endured. In the end we succumbed to enemy patterning and I have been picking up the pieces for 6 years. I thought they were finally picked up and now this other person stepped into my life in earnest the day that this "Lion's Gate" thing opened ... the other day... after the full moon. I got some strange email out of the blue from who knows who to partake in a personal burn bowl ceremony to symbolize the burning of these 3D constructs related to the lunar matrix and the infiltration on the earth.. it included some ES language as well as other stuff...clearing the damage from vaccines, human trafficking, Ai, etc.... but it felt very aligned and I did my HGS Calibration and then the ceremony. It felt really good.
The next morning I get a message from the higher self of this guy who I have been witnessing for at least 5 years because he reminded me of my first divine partner. I was going to say "the man who broke my heart" but I saw the VV in it and I know his heart was broken too and in his leaving he was just trying to follow God. We were destroying each other instead of healing one another in love as we were meant to.
Anyway, this similar spirit and feeling is here and it's intense. I'm not sure what God's will is but I need to keep calling on the spirits of Christ and do my best to remain present and aligned with my higher self and see where my negative ego is trying to take me off course. One of the biggest intentions for this time of shadow clearing...this "Lion's Gate"... is to really subdue this negative ego. That will lead to more success embodying ChristSophia which will allow me to be of more use to God and hopefully more success supporting this mission we are on here.
I DO want a partner. I believe we are more powerful together and can anchor more Light ... just a more fulfilling experience, as Lisa was saying last night. But I don't want to get ahead of myself as I see myself doing. This is my M.O. and this time I'm invoking the Timeline Override Sequence and will/desire to just be a compassionate witness to that which unfolds. No pushing or pulling. This is an opportunity to learn and practice. A second chance. There's nothing to fear. Just allow it to unfold and BE LOVE NOW. And that's it. Easier said than done, of course.
I told Sophia that I was afraid of failure and she helped me realize that all of these interactions are really interactions with aspects of myself. This person has been brought forth to heal something within me. That's not exactly what she said... maybe not that at all, but that's what I just said and it's true. But she helped me realize that my "mission failure" maybe wasn't a failure or "hell" at all... and it was part of my journey. I DO know I learned so much through it and I believe that it was, in a way, a recognizance mission. So now, if this is a "take 2", a "second chance", a "do-over"...no matter what it leads to, the only part that matters is that I am true to my self. This whole thing is between me and Me and if I can use all things to support the healing, restoration, empowerment, and love of this beloved (me), then maybe I'll be doing something of use on the earth.
I'm a micro for the macro. Healing myself heals the world.
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1:21 1:54 1:55 5:53
I just looked through all my old Facebook photos and now feel a little weird. I've been judging myself and it feels bad. But I also see how I haven't been a free-flowing vessel and I see how all the miasma got backed up. I am rarely happy or authentic in those photos.
I do not want to be judgmental anymore.
I want to be loving and kind. Michael brings this out in me. He's been kind today too... even sent me a video on Christ. I think he wants me to move on, but I also think he wants to keep me but wishes I would just abandon my beliefs. Lior would probably want that too... but it would be my role to hold loving space and allow him to process that. As I need to do with Michael. And all beings.
I am not the same person I was when Lior and Stefani got married either... we are all changing rapidly. I feel this very strong tie to him ... he may be my genetic equal and HG partner, but maybe not. Maybe just GE... and this is bringing up WORK for me to process and surrender. Is this the Red Cube? What was all that stuff in dreamstate? I saw a post on Gavriel's page ... maybe Lior's maybe his about BEING the tornado. Was he the tornado in my dream with Moses? It was forming against me... and was it black/dark? Pay attention to these things. I do NOT want to get into another anti-HG thing. I want ONLY the real deal. Father, Mother, please guide and direct me... please send help to protect me and keep me aligned with my HIGHEST POTENTIAL...the highest path I can take for the bifurcation.
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No super-great numbers today... no big duplicates. I DID see 16:44 but not technically the 4:44... oh, I did actually... So 444 and Candice talked about City Four Square.
Big talks with Candice (hour), Sophia (hour), and lots of processing and journaling and shared on ESF and got some of V's card done. Processing in my being. Lots of energy work... I was so sick and dizzy... definitely "working"... so come back and stay in neutrality and remain IN CHRISTSOPHIA. I pray for the spirits of Christ to embody - purity, patience, kindness, generosity, discipline, diligence, humility.
I don't want to eat.
I'm not hungry.
Feel it. It's okay.
I don't want to talk to him. His field causes this spin out in biwave. Need to hold neutrality and I can't.
It's not fair to him or Stefani for me to have this kind of feelings. I can't be a neutral compassionate witness with these feelings and dreams. Dang. God. No, I can't and won't "save" him. He has to choose to save himself. And I don't want to be a friend under false guises ... consoling him...blah blah. I DO feel for him and get that horrible pain and pray for healing for his heart and I DO hold a field of love and peace for him. But I can't fake or lie about it.
Just heard this song playing and it's right on:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00
What am I learning through this? Tyrone and Lior were in the same Monad... My Soul and their Monad are meant to be together and have been... we love each other for all of eternity. I feel it... is it a Red Cube distortion?? It feels so real ... this is my beloved. Is it ALB? God... please help. Read about the ALB thread on ESF.... let's see if there are clues there. This song is so right on... so... just feel into it. I can love him... it's more than him. It's that consciousness... 6:43... it's the Christ to my Sophia... it's the DIVINE UNION. The ripple from my own soul's merge.
And there are probably others in that Monad that would be better suited and ready for a relationship when the time is right... they would probably be more open to working together... this is what I really need... to have a partner to work together on gridwork with. To LIVE the gridwork together and live in PEACE, HARMONY, and JOY. Not a battle.
This dear soul has so much more work to do. (As do I.) And he doesn't know it and it's not up to me to show him. I can just hold a field of love. God, you see. Does Gavriel see?
I did get a message from him at 18:18
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Big head boop. 20:00
To nature I go.
ps. Found this in this journal from 2012 and it's medicine for the soul! So good!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pwe-pA6TaZk&t=82s
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Come back to neutrality and let GOD lead. Let's go back and witness this emotional rollercoaster, ha! We're feeling better now... much more centered. I think the BOOP was an upgrade program to help me cope with the increased frequency to keep me from splitting. I've GOT TO stay strong. I've got such amazing support from our Team!
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