Trip to Cahokia Mounds

 I don't even know where to start...  the beginning seems to boring, but maybe there? No. 

9 states in 4 days plus two bonus mountain vacation days = 6 days of WOW.

9 states: North Carolina, Virginia, West Virginia, Ohio (surprise), Kentucky, Indiana, Illinois, Missouri, and Tennessee.

I need to settle in. I've built this "documentation" up too much because I failed at journaling to capture the trip. I know I'll forget so much.

I was driving into Winston-Salem, I think, on the first day Tuesday, June 29th, and just got off the phone with Mama Bear who was telling me NOT to come because it was going to be so dangerous because all these people were coming into Nashville for fireworks. Fear-mongering I guess, though I didn't subscribe. As soon as I got off the phone with her, I started talking to Caden about that interaction and all of a sudden I had what I guess felt like MAYBE that "walk-in" or whatever happened in January 2010 was... something, I guess, blew in through the top of my head and down through my body. My feet were burning. 

I always described that January 2, 2010 thing as "God poured in through the top of my head and I poured out my feet" and that's kind of what it felt like, except I didn't really pour... it was more like something joined me or was it an EMF pulse or attack? That was my question, was that an attack or an upgrade? I want to think it was an upgrade. I was rendered speechless. I was driving! I don't know how I continued... I actually think the fact that I was driving and having to focus on that kept me from panicking. It was intense. 3:11 (I'm just going to start putting the numbers in that I see when I see them. I've been so supported by number codes this whole week. Always, but especially this week.) 

Anyway, that was big. 

Other big things:

BIGGEST = Cahokia. I need to get quiet and see what flows through that. But then I'm building it up too much. But it was important to me.

Spending the night with Candice at her home in Ashland, Kentucky was special. She had lovely architecture there... felt really good. We went to some Indian Mounds near her home to eat and play. Her kids are all beautiful powerful little beings. Tegan, Zedediah, and Willa. Tegan was especially powerful and beautiful and I felt her work. I saw them again at Maggie Valley, North Carolina and when I hugged Tegan I got a big 3:44 pain in my solar plexus or lower heart... activation? Transit? 

I transited lots...especially through West Virginia, lots of burps. 

I'll get to Maggie Valley later, I hope. But in Kentucky I had a HORRIBLE bloody incident... I had the bloodiest of days of my period that day and that night at Candice's was awful. I was trying to keep up with the flow and in her bathroom (which was shared with everyone so the pressure was on), I was just bleeding everywhere...blood everywhere...clots and blood and just grossness dripping on me, my clothes, the toilet and just a horrible and embarrassing mess. I did not like that one bit. But I DO think it was part of blood sacrifice healing or collapsing a timeline with Candice's Avatar. Or something. 

We had great chats... talked until, I think it was 1 am!! But very healing and lovely. Grateful that she is my sister. We are putting pieces together. This is good to do. In her dreamstate she said we did lots of work that night in KY... HG union work. Thanks be to God!

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I'm back - took Dee out for ice cream and hung out with her and Jim a little. Then walked dogs and Sioux, then dinner with influx of bugs - cockroaches or something ucky crawling all over. Then finished Cards to Cash card order... paid printer and accepted proof and here I am... No. Ordered treasure chests too. And tucked in chickens. NOW here I am.

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So after leaving Candice's we drove through the beautiful state of Kentucky. I loved the first 1/3 of Kentucky. You know I love West Virginia and especially the southern part near Virginina... that NC, VA, WV area is one of my favorites and I wouldn't mind living there one day. 

Pause: It was strange, I told Jim and Dee about Michael and I being over and Jim actually cheered. He was like "I'm sorry, but I'm happy for you." It was strange. But somewhat lovely. They've been complimenting me a lot lately on my vibe/aura, etc. Okay...back to the trip.

So as we were driving in Indiana, not too far in, I saw this sign for Marengo Caves. It got my attention and I was like "God, do you want me to go there?"... then I saw a sign for a road that seemed familiar, I can't remember it right now Wyandotte Cave Rd. I think. It also just got my attention...and then another Marengo Caves sign so I pulled off the highway at that exit to look it up. As I was pulling into the gas station, Corie called and said "how about stopping at some caves?"... I was like WHAT?! Okay God! Yes! Corie bought us combo tickets to do both cave tours... Crystal Palace (40 min) and Dripstone Trail (1 hr). We initially weren't going to do the second tour but eventually decided to. I got into trouble in the stores with all the rocks they were selling. And we did a "gem mining" thing too. Caden picked out a Celestite egg for me and I had a Rose Amethyst call my name. (That color is really present lately... rose gold.). The caves were cool. Literally too. 52 degrees. We both got "cave kisses" where the water dripped on us. Caden really liked the place where we could throw coins at the ceiling to see if they stuck... he got a couple pennies to stick! 

We spent maybe 3 hours there... could be a tinge more or less...maybe even 4 hours? As we got back on the road it started to rain. It didn't rain too badly...there were a couple spots where I couldn't see well.

Corie's car, Pearl, was SUCH a blessing and so good to us! It felt nice to feel safer in that car... lots of great features. I really liked the fancy "cruise control" ... it would slow down for you if someone got in front of you and go the same speed as them. In general it stops if someone slows or stops in front of you. It also had hands free so I could talk on the phone and drive....and a navigation map/panel...and I could plug my audio device in to listen to my music or Lisa's talks. Just really a wonderful and comfortable blessing. Thanks be to God and Corie for that gift.

As we were driving closer to the Mississippi there were what appeared to be Guardians in the clouds... 

We finally made it to St. Louis... it was raining as we were coming in. We went directly to the Gateway Arch area and walked around there and went down to the Mississippi. The water was really muddy. I started to feel sick around that time. By the time we went to the bathroom and saw the ticket counter and inside area at the Gateway Arch, I was feeling like I had a fever... did not feel well. I sat for a few seconds on a rock outside the cathedral we parked at. But kept pressing on.

Braden was so kind to sponsor a hotel for us and as I was checking in, I was trying to look and act normal (in the "covid era" it is not acceptable to be sick) but I felt like, well, yeah, like I had covid! I was pooped...it was a long day driving. We left Candice's at about 8am and were checking in to the hotel a little after 8pm. The day before was a long drive too... I was just wearing down... and the toxic food was taking a toll.

I DO think the illness was me transmuting some stuff related to Mississippian energy. I feel it even now coming up and out my heart. I think I still have more to let go...but I took some energy codes into my body to work with, I guess.

Unfortunately the restaurant in the hotel was closed and we looked on UberEats and Caden wanted a burger ... which might have been closed but it would have also been $36 for two burgers. In the end after calling around (I just couldn't bear to go back to the parking garage and get back in the car to go find some food)... we ended up with a sandwich pocket thing from Papa Johns... still a little over $20. So much money wasted on toxic food. 

But we had a nice shower and sleep. I felt really connected as I did the Command Personal Space and other clearings. I slept with my meditations... probably fitfully but I have come to accept this nighttime routine... wake up and find a new meditation and go back to sleep all through the night. Sometimes we write down notes. Sometimes we don't take another meditation. But I feel like we are working and learning lots at night.

I didn't know you could go UP in the Gateway Arch until that night when we were there. It said there were no more tickets for the day and I was sick so we didn't do it that first night, but Caden really wanted to do it. I said we could go back the next morning and at first I said HE could do it but I didn't want to. I was having a pain body and selfishness problem and didn't put him first and was trying to manipulate him into saying "nevermind"...I just wanted to get on to Cahokia Mounds... but Caden said he'd go alone. I thought about it and right before going to sleep I told him I'd go with him. He was happy about that.

The next morning we got up early to go to breakfast. Caden didn't want anything. He was sweet to get up with me. I had a waffle and oatmeal and eggs, I think. I love hotel waffles! We checked out and went over to the Gateway Arch. We decided to push our luck and go to the same church parking lot we had stumbled into the night before. It said it was ONLY for church goers and the night before I thought if we just went in for a bit that would count but the doors ended up being locked so we just stayed parked there. (SCORE!) That morning the church doors were NOT locked so we went in and walked around the stations of the cross. No one was there. It was a catholic cathedral. Pretty. Terrifying. BUT we felt like we earned our parking spot and went off to see about the Gateway Arch. Unfortunately as soon as we got there, we saw that tickets were sold out AGAIN for the tram ride to the top! Oh no! It was 9am!

I decided to ask about it and the woman was able to get some cancelled tickets or something for 11:10am if we wanted to wait. Yes we did! So we spent the next 2 hours hanging out in the museum and learning about the Gateway Arch and that area... it was great. Caden did a very hard puzzle...reminded me of a rubic's cube. He is very smart. And kind. Let's talk about Caden a bit.

Caden started out in the front seat on our journey but quickly he must not have felt safe with me. My energy is probably not as soothing as I want it to be yet. He ended up putting his blanket over his head and going inward... watching movies on his tablet. By the afternoon he had moved to the back/middle area where he made his home for the rest of the trip... often with the blanket over his head. He was always kind. Sometimes I could tell he didn't want to be bothered. I tried not to push him. I was really hoping for some deep conversations or something but the few times we talked, whenever I would fall into a "wanting information"... a clinging or looking for connection... push/pull energy... he would retreat. It was a good lesson for me. Good practice. I wish I had done better at being present and safe and I don't really know how I did. I regret not giving him more attention when we were at Candice's house. 

He was going to sleep in Jed's bedroom on the bed and I was going to sleep on the couch, but Candice and I got to talking in there and talked for hours and I had that blood situation and in the end I asked to sleep there and if he would sleep on the couch. I wish I had communicated better. He came in a few times to get stuff (or pretend to maybe) and I ignored him... just watched...forgot that he was my responsibility and to check in to see if he needed something. I was selfish. And greedy. And took the bed. But needed a towel to sleep on and wanted to sleep because I had to drive the next day and thought I'd sleep better. Either way, I wish I had done better. 

But Caden is smart... very smart. And in-tune. Wise. Present. He's a beautiful being and I'm fortunate that he incarnated in to our family line to help heal it.

Eventually it was our turn to go up the Gateway Arch! We had to wear a mask in that section and I wore my fake one. We had a "tram" to ourselves... they were tiny little pods that were supposed to fit 5 people. Claustrophobic people need not attempt it... it's very small. But very cool the way it works... and it was fun to look out from the top of the Gateway Arch. I was so glad we went! We had fun!

There were two older people next to us that offered to take our picture and told us to take our masks down for the photo! We did. When I returned the favor and they took theirs down, the security guard came over and yelled at all of us. Good times! Ha!

After that it was about noon and we headed off to Cahokia Mounds... the main reason for the trip (though I feel there were many important pieces now). I don't think Caden ate anything so we had to find some food before Cahokia and we ended up going to a kind of cool place. He wanted Wendys but I didn't want a drive through. I can't remember what it was called. Something Burgers? It was good though... greasy as heck, and I tried a key lime concrete which I couldn't eat much of. I was obviously looking for something refreshing and needed vegetables but instead ate more poison. 

We spent maybe 5 and a half or 6 hours at Cahokia Mounds. Caden was so patient with me. 

We started at the Woodhenge where I walked around and laid in the grass and prayed. I noticed that the rose quartz that I got in Indiana had RAINBOWS in them! I grabbed one and held it as I walked around that area... Woodhenge, Mound 44, and across the street. As I walked around the perimeter of Mound 44 where I felt a kinship, maybe because I'm going to be 44 this year, and maybe because later I found out the symbol that I really connected with was found on a clay shard there on that mound. It was a rod/staff cross surrounded by the sun... in circles. Powerful. 

So as I was walking around the perimeter first a blue dragonfly came to visit and sit with me. I was talking to her and talking to Michael at the same time and got off with Michael to talk to her. And then I decided to video, to try to capture the moment and as I swung the camera around and I left her visually, she flew off. I was so sad and saw how I chose to try to hold/cling to those moments and by doing that, I lost them. I need, instead, to be present. This is a big lesson for me and has been for a while. I mourned losing that friend... the dragonflies have been very present as messengers in my life lately. And she, with her blue body was so lovely. 

A bee comforted me and it was great to be there on the Monk's Mound side of Mound 44. Then a green dragonfly came to say hi and spend time with me and I loved it. I laid in the grass and loved it all. Then I went across the road and was praying... clearing... talking to God. I was freestyling prayer and 2 Chronicles 7:14 came up about how if we humble ourselves and pray and seek God's face and turn from our wicked ways, that God will hear from heaven and forgive our sin and heal our land. I was a little torn inside, observing myself as I tried...efforted...to connect to God and beg forgiveness. Was I push/pulling energy? Was I trying to hard? Did I just need to BE and walk and just let it unfold? Yes. That too.

So I went back to the car where Caden was patiently waiting and we drove over to Monk's Mound.  

Monk's Mound was amazing. This is where the High Priest lived and worked and also, turns out, where blood sacrifices were made. It was quite hot in the sun and God was so good to me as I asked for some shade as we were climbing the many steps. Caden said it was 154 or 155 steps. 

From the top you could see St. Louis and all of Cahokia. I bet it was amazing to see back in the days that Cahokia was a bustling metropolis. We spent some time up there and back in the area where the High Priest lived I saw some beautiful thistle (Caden told me what it was) and Queen Anne's Lace and a blue bird was singing her heart out to show me where to leave the Rose Quartz Crystal Seed with the Aurora Flame in it...right by that beautiful bird and the thistle.  I tossed it there. Didn't dig... just threw it in the weeds. God's will be done.  God, may it replace and heal the Anubian Black Heart seed in the land there. 

I met two souls up on top there ...they both felt relevant and as though they were actively picking up their pieces too. It was cool. We took photos for each other, I think. One took ours of us and I took one of the other. 

When we came down from Monk's Mound we went over to check out the Stockade Wall and then Caden went back to the van which was under the shade of a magnificent tree! I talked to that tree as I was coming back to the car and was so in love with him/her (androgynous) and wanted to capture their picture... they said they didn't want that. They were a little ornery... bitter. It was sad. I tried to tell them how beautiful they were. (Apparently they are a "they"...non-binary, ha!)... but I had to honor and learn from that experience and not take their picture. But I did hug them and see them and love them so much! They were one of the best trees I've ever met! I thanked them for their work.

But before that I was out by the far stockade wall and felt to sit in the grass looking out at Monk's Mound and actually a little more on the north area along the woods and I had an incredible few moments. I was led to sing and pray... sing my prayer I guess...it was a chant... the Native American sounding prayer and chant that comes out sometimes and this time it was very clear and beautiful and I could feel the mourning through my soul. The repentance for going our own way... for not trusting God...well, for trusting our own pride and how good it felt to be looked at as God by all these people and for what came out of that. I felt both masculine and feminine in that interaction... man and woman... leader and follower... the heart of the people as one, perhaps?

As I learned and as I was there I felt pieces come together ... I always think of myself as "number 2", like the second leader... not the main leader, but second tier and I think that was my "caste" there too... that I wasn't the High Priest, but that I supported him and served alongside him. The blood was on my hands too. I think Gabe was the High Priest. A part of him or the part he took on to heal is related to that. This also makes sense with what feels like both of us healing Fallen Melchezidek and Twilight Master energies. I don't know if he knows he's doing that but I still feel very tied to him and felt him or his Ai clone (ack!) energy most of this trip. When we drove through where he (used to, probably will again) live in West Virginia... I think it was literally his road... I took some photos of it. I probably shouldn't have because the whole rest of the time I wanted to send them to him to show where I was. The last day when I got home, I sent him one of the gold dome. I remember that area and that dome from when I drove through there in 2011. I digress... 

I just felt like it was Gabe's and my work (among others- Candice?) to heal this metatronic spiral in this area that created reversal heart current... Anubian Black Heart for the planetary circulatory system instead of the LIFE GIVING Krystal current. God, please clear and heal the hearts now!

So that was so beautiful in that field... the best moments of the trip... the most connected and surrendered and powerful. But it was quick. Couldn't have been more than 15-20 minutes. Then I went and talked to that tree and then we went to the museum/interactive center where I wanted to read EVERYTHING! 

Again Caden was patient. He got a little impatient but did really well. He found lots of fun stuff to show me and I enjoyed learning about the culture. The three words...the birdman tablet represents the "birdman" which is from the upper worlds... reminds me of the seraphim and of course the fallen melchezidek.10:22... and then the backside has the snake skin/cross hatching to represent the lower worlds which is where serpents and caves and water are (not bad or evil...they just are what they are), and then man is in the middle and trying to balance both worlds. 

Mound 72 jumped out at me right away as we were planning our trip at lunch and I knew I needed to go there so it was interesting to learn more about it. There were apparently a number of bodies who had been sacrificed buried there 10:23... blood sacrifice was a thing and I felt that before even knowing it. We went out to that mound, Caden and I, and it was so beautiful on the way out. Cool and gorgeous. At the mound itself I had my ESF meditations binder with me and I wanted to recite the "Blood Covenant Clearing".  I sat at the base of the mound and started to do so and... there were so many messengers from nature... deer... heron... and the dragonflies...for example. And the dragonflies came around me and landed on my book... both blue and green ones... mother and father ones... they alternated. There was one phrase that a green dragonfly asked me to repeat over and over. I did and it was great. Eventually they left and I really felt like maybe my words were empty. I wondered if I was going through the motions or if I was being duped into feeling that way so I just kept going. Not sure if it was beneficial or not. 

I did the Blood Covenant Clearing, Clearing Black Magic, Safe Passage and maybe one more. I don't remember. 

Then a deer came by and it was time to go. Then some rain drops. But we walked the long way around the rest of the property and it was so so so SO beautiful! I saw a buck and a mom with her baby laying in the grass! I walked barefoot from Mound 72, around and through the Great Plaza and back to the car. I got to see a baby heron with a big grey heron, a white heron and a deer overlooking a stream. Butterflies too... they were there. 

It was magnificent. Thank you God. 

There's more, I'm sure but that's what I've got for now.

Then we took off to drive as far as we could that night ... headed toward Grammie & Pa's. I really wanted to get to Tennessee that night and didn't realize we had a big chunk of Illinois and Kentucky before we got there. We DID get there though. Corie helped us find a hotel right over the border and Mom and Dad paid for it. We were pooped again.

The next day we drove through Tennessee and it was really really beautiful to me. We drove by Nashville and then headed toward where Mama Bear Nancy lives. The roads to her home were gorgeous and I was listening to my music and bawling much of the way. Very cleansing and lovely.  It was great to see Nancy who lives in a beautiful area, Rock Island. I loved it there! We weren't there long- maybe 40 minutes- she is so kind and humble. She is 77 years old and lives in an RV trailer the size of, I don't know, the loft? Small. I feel bad for her but she was happy... and has all these "mud daubers" (wasps!!) that live there... Carl and Charlie and someone else...they just come and go and she watches them build their homes. Says that Michael says that women shouldn't kill animals. 

Nora's house was pretty inside and the coolest white cat (from LYRA!) came to say hi and bless me. It was incredible! They have a beautiful rolling back yard and a big river right near their home. It's lovely! Absolutely lovely! I was led to leave my labradorite heart crystal with Nancy. God bless her. 

The drive from Nancy's to Grammie and Pa's was long. There was lots of holiday traffic, especially through Knoxville. Once we got through to the pass between TN and NC on 40, it was really lovely. I was talking to Rosemary which was nice and it was pretty and felt really good. It was a long windy ride through Sylva and Cashiers to get "home", but we made it, thanks be to God! We had a great dinner and I had a bath and ... did I mention, WE MADE IT?! I slept well. 

That's technically the end of the journey but we got some bonus days... July 3rd was fantastic... enjoying the mountain views, sun, plants, family... and we went on a hike to Carlton's Falls. This was big for me as fear kept arising... it arises a lot up there. I gave myself away to much fear and I think there is just lots of energy there. Dragonflies came to comfort me... and vultures. But I kept putting one foot in front of the other. Last time I tried to do Carlton's Falls - 5 years ago or so? I got stung by a bee and scared... but I just tried to stay close to Mother (and loving my family...thanking God for the opportunity to hold space and walk forward, healing our generations, all of us, my parents, me, and Caden). The falls were powerful and beautiful. 

I fell trying to go up to look at a cave and scraped my arm which put me in a little bit of a fear state ("am I okay, Caden?" "yes, you are"). But we overcame. And chose to walk an extra hour with Mom ... which was lovely. Great conversation. Just a really balanced and lovely visit. Ate well. Rested well. Talked well. Got a white pine tree friend to come home with me ... Dad and Caden found it along their nature path. Please God let him live. Dad also gave me a Thai Basil! 

On the way home I drove out back through Sylva and to Maggie Valley which I'd never been to before and met up with Candice for another few hours...we talked by the stream and baptized eachother in Mother's Waters. As we were praying for the embodiment of the light of Christ-Sophia, a light turned on from heaven onto our heads... it was CRAAAZY AWESOME! She is my sister. Thank you God.

Great drive home too... listening to podcasts, music, talking to friends (I guess)... I was in a blur... but made it home in time to enjoy some of Sundance's 4th of July picnic too. POOPED.

And I'm pooped now. I want to add some photos but don't know if I will. Here's the link to the ones I shared with the family.

Tomorrow I have a session with Joe Machney. 
I also just offered again to talk to Lior. Lior's real name is Gabriel but he unfriended me there and he's definitely dealing with some split personality stuff. I get it. Lots of fracturing for us starseeds but he took on a big contract to come into a Jewish family and faith. I don't know if we can be friends but he's been in my heart since I found him shortly after Tyrone left. He's always reminded me of Tyrone too. Same spirit. Which may be the same as me... Indigo3 with both dark and light. There is pride there which is hard to work with (like me... like Tyrone... like lots of us). 

But as I was writing to him to invite him to be my friend and talk someday, I felt warmth in my sacral ... no, sexual organs. Sexual misery program activation... that's a demonic spirit that is coming through that. So God please protect me. I do not consent to that. But is it my own lust that longs to connect with him. And this piece about him being named Gabriel is another thing. But this is not ease. This is Ai Red Wave. My next partner will be loving, easy, starseeded, on the same path... have done a lot of work on it already. Stronger in faith than me. 

I AM MY NEXT PARTNER. Be with ME now. That's it. 

Anyway...just wanted to note that I could feel the sexual misery program. That's good. Feel. Discern. Make note.

Today when I took Dee for birthday ice cream, we were talking and I had this pain in my right neck and up to my ear and I wondered what it was. It was a little disturbing. Turned out that was HER pain. I could feel it. So just remember... this is what being a sensitive empath is. Stay shielded and alert. And maybe this is helping to transit that for her. Maybe I can HELP people, but I need to stay supple and conscious and aligned with God Source. 

I need to take care of baby chickens and do my mirror exercise and go to BED!
Very aligned lessons today... dreamt about magnetic shift in solar plexus or something, then got EMF command for AG pick today, then meditation pull was Astrological Blueprint Correction. All to help correct the magnetic alignment. I am just on a big ride... thank you God and Guidance teams for directing me. As I said to Candice, we are like chess pieces... our teams are moving us. We just need to go with it.