Who am I?: You are a servant of the most High
What am I here to do?: You are here to serve the earth by becoming the earthMy heart is merging my twin flame... I am my twin flame... the 11:33 ... double heaters.
Well shoot - I had a dream about an earthquake last night... and just saw that there was one in California. 5.9... probably about what we experienced in the dream. In the dream we were about 3-4 stories up in an apartment building with my family. When everything started shaking and we realized we were in an earthquake I wondered if we needed to get out of the building. In the end I decided if it got worse we could just jump off the balcony. That's all that I think happened in that dream.
Lots of processing in dreams. I processed Jeff too. We were finally a couple and both happy. When we were laying in bed... he wasn't perfect... I wasn't perfect... it was just us... our souls that loved each other. There seemed like there were some 3D challenges on the periphery, but right there, laying in bed facing eachother, we were just us, content. But I told him something like "lying is not acceptable to me... I can't have that"... and I realized that he wasn't going to be able to not lie. Like there was some underlying thing where he was going to spend the week in Plattsburgh and he was going to be sleeping with other women and he didn't want to hurt me so wouldn't tell me... but he also wanted to honor my wish so I could tell there was conflict inside of him.
Lots of processing in dreams. I processed Jeff too. We were finally a couple and both happy. When we were laying in bed... he wasn't perfect... I wasn't perfect... it was just us... our souls that loved each other. There seemed like there were some 3D challenges on the periphery, but right there, laying in bed facing eachother, we were just us, content. But I told him something like "lying is not acceptable to me... I can't have that"... and I realized that he wasn't going to be able to not lie. Like there was some underlying thing where he was going to spend the week in Plattsburgh and he was going to be sleeping with other women and he didn't want to hurt me so wouldn't tell me... but he also wanted to honor my wish so I could tell there was conflict inside of him.
I think this helps...helped... me to let go of that 30 year old dream of being a partner with Jeff. My Yeff. (Yeff means "great one"... and it naturally flowed to me as his name in my heart). Who knows what God will do with him ...but I pray love for and into his soul that it might awaken and be healed into the fullness of Christ-Sophia.
I AM my own partner. I am coming into a beautiful partnership with myself. This is what's happening with my kidneys and heart merging... and grounding into the earth. I am becoming the earth to hold space as the expression and offspring of Holy Mother and Holy Father.
I let go of Lior/Gabriel (including Tyrone as he is part of that spirit)... I cannot save anyone and I honor the spirit of God in them. But that exercise the other day where I pulled apart and responded to one of his downloads from God (written in all caps... there is such power in those writings... he is a prophet to the nations)... but I saw there was still a mixture of 3D pain in it. Lior is human. Lior is the God, Gabriel is the human. (Ironically) But I surrender that to God. When I got that message from him it was like the letters I got from Tyrone... same power. But I choose differently this time. I am not desperate. I am whole. I do not consent to my negative ego driving the spirit of God... the spirit of God overcomes the negative ego. 11:55. I AM. So I let that go. I put it in God's hands and let it go.
I let go of Lior/Gabriel (including Tyrone as he is part of that spirit)... I cannot save anyone and I honor the spirit of God in them. But that exercise the other day where I pulled apart and responded to one of his downloads from God (written in all caps... there is such power in those writings... he is a prophet to the nations)... but I saw there was still a mixture of 3D pain in it. Lior is human. Lior is the God, Gabriel is the human. (Ironically) But I surrender that to God. When I got that message from him it was like the letters I got from Tyrone... same power. But I choose differently this time. I am not desperate. I am whole. I do not consent to my negative ego driving the spirit of God... the spirit of God overcomes the negative ego. 11:55. I AM. So I let that go. I put it in God's hands and let it go.
The last human person that I still have work to do, perhaps, but maybe not. Yes. I do. Is Gabriel of WV. I have learned so much through that interaction with his spirit, his ai clones, and his ancestors. We have done valuable work together whether he sees it or not. I was embittered by his lack of acknowledgement of this important experience, but it wasn't about him or I... it WAS a lesson and opportunity for me to learn SO MUCH. About black magic, twilight master, fallen angels, native american people, gridwork, planetary and human architecture, and consent.
I learned that it is not okay to go into someone else's lightbody... it is a rape of sorts and it messes people up. We can work with other's guides and we can apply prayer for people. Gridwork happens (says Joe, I think)... it just happens. So if the dreams or visions I had were me driving, then that's no bueno... but I think I did gridwork with Gabe to help clean him up. That's been my job... "Wash it Away"... lots of cleaning and clearing for that beloved brother. I closed consent a while back to not allow him into my lightbody, yet we were still connected. I did the Ban of Non Interference and cut cords, yet we were still connected. Yes, AI Red Wave is involved because this is where we invite Holy Father's 15D consciousness to come in and clear out the distortions.
It's not okay to have power over someone. It's not okay to control something for someone. Compassionately witnessing is the job. "I give up controlllll... let me be your eyes, ears, hands, feet, etc., God" (song).
It's not okay to have power over someone. It's not okay to control something for someone. Compassionately witnessing is the job. "I give up controlllll... let me be your eyes, ears, hands, feet, etc., God" (song).
So my love has been purified for Gabriel Aaron Dionne. It was the work we had to do with Cahokia Mounds... that was tied to him. It was reclaiming a part of truth, heart, and asking forgiveness, all to collapse the timeline. We surrender the black heart seed and find true love.
Since getting back I have changed... Green in the mirror, and yesterday green, gold, and purple... this is the gold order, amethyst order, and emerald order. I know it. Thank you God. I am stepping deeper into my Godself, shedding my 3D constructs. Letting them go. I let the need for a human partner go. I even let the desire to be friends with Gabe go. I don't know if it would be helpful. I thought it could help us do our work, but that, too, was a "push/pull" (witchcraft.... not aligned with God). I surrender all.
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Was going to post this in the forum but decided not to:
Just saw the "Polishing the Inner Pearl" image and wanted to just share how this theme came through to me last month and it was big for me too... June 18th and 19th, two days in a row I got, from different sources a "verse of the day" that was from Matthew 15:45-46:
In my personal journal I said
So grateful for the PRESENCE of God. So many lessons. Why do I have to prove myself to any of you, that God is speaking to me too. I don't. It's between my Godself and me... but we can just be in awe and gratitude that we are on the same stream as Lisa and what is coming through. So trust your own heart.
I'm in another influx or growth spurt.... makes sense... I was 33 when it was happening before and about to be 44... so just riding it out. Big lessons.
I am not entertainment for others. I do not want to be corded onto. I want only to be ONE in God... to serve my Source and fulfill my mission. I want to let go of all negative ego constructs and desires of the flesh. I want to be whole and complete in Solar Christ Sophia I AM.
So forget about this post. I don't have to prove anything or show anything. I need to keep listening to my heart and compassionately witness the synchronicities.... this is a lesson. Same as seeing the exercise recommendations to open my heart and breath into it and my solar plexus and the energy testing exercise too, to bring the white light into my 3rd eye and heart... so... PRACTICE.
Thanks be to God.
Just saw the "Polishing the Inner Pearl" image and wanted to just share how this theme came through to me last month and it was big for me too... June 18th and 19th, two days in a row I got, from different sources a "verse of the day" that was from Matthew 15:45-46:
Again, the Kingdom of Heaven is like a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. 46 When he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!
In my personal journal I said
"Why and how did I get this again?? I guess the first time it came through a different source... but PAY ATTENTION. God, what would you have me do? Give EVERYTHING to FOLLOW and HOLD ONTO this PEARL OF GREAT PRICE!"
So grateful for the PRESENCE of God. So many lessons. Why do I have to prove myself to any of you, that God is speaking to me too. I don't. It's between my Godself and me... but we can just be in awe and gratitude that we are on the same stream as Lisa and what is coming through. So trust your own heart.
I'm in another influx or growth spurt.... makes sense... I was 33 when it was happening before and about to be 44... so just riding it out. Big lessons.
I am not entertainment for others. I do not want to be corded onto. I want only to be ONE in God... to serve my Source and fulfill my mission. I want to let go of all negative ego constructs and desires of the flesh. I want to be whole and complete in Solar Christ Sophia I AM.
So forget about this post. I don't have to prove anything or show anything. I need to keep listening to my heart and compassionately witness the synchronicities.... this is a lesson. Same as seeing the exercise recommendations to open my heart and breath into it and my solar plexus and the energy testing exercise too, to bring the white light into my 3rd eye and heart... so... PRACTICE.
Thanks be to God.
ps. I just drove "Pearl" to Cahokia too. WOW God.
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I DID post in the forum:
Just saw the "Polishing the Inner Pearl" image and was like WOW GOD?!! What?! This theme came through to me last month... June 18th and 19th, two days in a row ...I got, from different sources a "verse of the day" that was from Matthew 15:45-46:
I drove "Pearl" to Cahokia too. (The name of my sister's car which she graciously let me use.) WOW God.
So grateful for the PRESENCE of God. So many lessons, synchronicities, and opportunities.
While I'm writing, other noteable things that I wanted to touch on... there's many but a few:
I ended my trip to Cahokia in Sapphire. Seems like the whole thing started related to my trip in April to Emerald Coast (where there was also an Indian Temple Mound where we flew into and out of (Fort Walton). I didn't know it, but my soul must have).
There have been big clearing themes related to fallen melchezidek, twilight master, black magic, and blood sacrifice.
Also heart healing. Merging the crystal heart within...needed to swap out an anubian black heart seed for the KRYSTAL heart seed for myself and the earth. Serving... hearing, holding, speaking with and for ancestors. Gestalt consciousness... Seeing, accepting and loving and merging in Unity, all these beings who are not me who come through me.
This morning in asking what I was here to do I heard: You are here to serve the earth by becoming the earth
Nature ... Mother... has been my healer and lover of my soul. Joe helped me realize how in nature there is no judgement... God speaks in love alone. Complete acceptance. The birds, trees, dragonflies, cardinals, butterflies, vultures, bees, and even my beloved guardian dogs, chickens, and horse don't apply judgement or pressure... they just love me in this moment just the way WE ARE. They sometimes help me to see things I might be missing, but it is through love and they make me laugh.
The self-acceptance mirror exercise has been so powerful this year. Not only do I appear to be collapsing, or witnessing into wholeness, I should say, all these people... mostly humans (though some were questionable) of all different ages and shapes and sizes - men and women both. But I watched my own container morph and become more and more Light. I was golden... and then translucent.
When I returned from my trip I saw that I was no longer gold, but I was green and had a whole different group of people to witness. In the gold group they seemed more like they were from Wales-Norway (I know that's specific, but that's what came to me, ha!). Last night I was a mix of green, gold, and purple. I suspect it is the different Orders (gold, amethyst, and emerald) working with and through me and I'm so grateful and honored. I feel kind of funny talking about it because I was told by a pastor once shortly after my Indigo activation (maybe Oraphim walk-in to my existing Indigo neurology and experience)... anyway, he said "we don't talk about these things... they are between us and God." (or something).
And I DO see more and more how this WHOLE THING...this whole Earth exercise is between ME and me... my Godself and my Carissaself... the embodiment of Solar Christ Sophia, the expression and offspring of Holy Father and Holy Mother to restore the earth (etc.). But I also know how amazing the context and community has been in helping make this a more efficient and peaceful process. I'm starting to split here so I guess I should take a break... anyway... I go back and forth with whether it is of use or of harm to share. Of course these are my own experiences (and distortions that I am working through)... so. I guess that's it. It's okay.
Ah... I just realized it is also because of the big piece I'm healing related to Twilight Master and spiritual leader abuse. Spiritual pride has been a major stumbling block for me... a snare to imprison my Godself in negative ego and the Houses of Ego .
I'm healing though. This massively debilitating kidney pain the last two days turns out to be a blessing and aligned. It's a part of the monad embodiment, inner HG union, and heart integration process which I know I've been really working with. So grateful Melanie shared the AG page on Kidneys which, even though I was desperately looking for info online and the forum for how to support the kidneys I didn't think to look in the AG. Duh. Something happens when I am in pain where my brain shuts off and I can't figure out what to do.
Today a friend reminded me that "pain is the axis of enlightenment" and it helped me really sink into acceptance, to feel INTO the pain which seems to be helping it unravel, thanks be to God. What a wild and beautiful life this is! 111 (It's 1:11 as I write this. So many 111's lately.... even the road to Cahokia was 111 ... and all the supportive and personal numbers... 23, 54 along with the dups and trips ... )
Did I talk about how I feel that all this Ai Red Wave madness this year... especially during the Emerald-to-Sapphire bookend time (April-July)...seems to be about anchoring 15D Magenta Wave into 1D Red Wave ... I don't know 100% what I'm talking about but Charlotte may have mentioned it and I'm pulling it together from the clues I get (we're like detectives, aye?). On the way out to Cahokia...did I mention this? I don't think so... I had what felt like my ...
Let me pause and apologize for gushing again. And I know it's okay ... sweet Sabine helped me today ... I told her I was afraid to post too much in the forum because I didn't want to bother people and she asked "who would you bother?"... such a good question. My negative ego at play... VV at play. So... ramble on I shall... ha!
So when I had what I call my "walk-in" in January 2010 I described it as "God poured in through the top of my head and I poured out my feet'". The actual memory itself faded but those words (because I was constantly looking for an explanation from someone) stayed with me. That experience was very moving and I cried and snotted all over myself and I haven't been the same person since.
So on the way out to Cahokia as I was driving on a highway all of a sudden something poured in through the top of my head and seemed like something was burning in or out my feet. It was a little shocking ... a LOT shocking. Thanks be to God I have gotten relatively used to dealing with a lot of very strange things ... especially things through my head... but this was different. Didn't feel like a transit out, or a re-org or beeping brain wire thing or a pay attention thwackzing... it definitely felt like something flew into and down through my body. It reminded me of that time in 2010... but besides being shocked and trying not to fear or panic and just accept... I didn't cry or anything... in fact, I kept driving until I could get my senses about me. My feet burned for quite some time... 5-10 minutes maybe? Maybe not that long. But I seemed to hold a level of neutrality that doesn't seem possible... but it was. I did. Anyway. I don't know if that was another walk-in...someone to help with the Cahokia trip? Big things there. I keep saying Cahokia, but it was also the Mississippi... and even the Ohio and the exchanges I shared with Candice and others (who may not even be aware of their connection, and I could be wrong) it was wild!!!
Felt like work I began in 2011. I drove the same corridor through West Virginia that I drove with a burning heart (in Christ) 10 years ago and it was so powerful. Lots of transits and just felt amazing and in alignment. So much of the trip was that way... but I lost some connectivity because I didn't sufficiently prepare to care for my inner child/body and the "food" that I fed her (poison... travel/fast food) numbed my connection to spirit...or at least my sensitivity to my vessel...my HSP was dampened and the ability to feel what was going on at the level I'm used to was numbed. I want to beat myself up but I did enough of that with the poison so now I forgive and learn from it.
So anyway, I have had a feeling of fullness in my feet and legs since whatever that was...another walk-in or support or blast to try to open pathways... to anchor 15D into 1D ... maybe as part of an Atomic Body repair. I don't know. That just came out now. Sounds like in April we were anchoring 14D into 2D.
Candice and I (and her powerful daughter) shared something very special... especially on the banks of the stream in the mountains.... related to:
Whooo. I think I might be done for now. That was a lot. There's more. Always more. So much more. What a wild ride!
LOVE TO ALL!
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Just saw the "Polishing the Inner Pearl" image and was like WOW GOD?!! What?! This theme came through to me last month... June 18th and 19th, two days in a row ...I got, from different sources a "verse of the day" that was from Matthew 15:45-46:
In my personal journal I saidAgain, the Kingdom of Heaven is like a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. 46 When he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!
"Why and how did I get this again?? I guess the first time it came through a different source... but PAY ATTENTION. God, what would you have me do? Give EVERYTHING to FOLLOW and HOLD ONTO this PEARL OF GREAT PRICE!"
I drove "Pearl" to Cahokia too. (The name of my sister's car which she graciously let me use.) WOW God.
So grateful for the PRESENCE of God. So many lessons, synchronicities, and opportunities.
While I'm writing, other noteable things that I wanted to touch on... there's many but a few:
I ended my trip to Cahokia in Sapphire. Seems like the whole thing started related to my trip in April to Emerald Coast (where there was also an Indian Temple Mound where we flew into and out of (Fort Walton). I didn't know it, but my soul must have).
There have been big clearing themes related to fallen melchezidek, twilight master, black magic, and blood sacrifice.
Also heart healing. Merging the crystal heart within...needed to swap out an anubian black heart seed for the KRYSTAL heart seed for myself and the earth. Serving... hearing, holding, speaking with and for ancestors. Gestalt consciousness... Seeing, accepting and loving and merging in Unity, all these beings who are not me who come through me.
This morning in asking what I was here to do I heard: You are here to serve the earth by becoming the earth
Nature ... Mother... has been my healer and lover of my soul. Joe helped me realize how in nature there is no judgement... God speaks in love alone. Complete acceptance. The birds, trees, dragonflies, cardinals, butterflies, vultures, bees, and even my beloved guardian dogs, chickens, and horse don't apply judgement or pressure... they just love me in this moment just the way WE ARE. They sometimes help me to see things I might be missing, but it is through love and they make me laugh.
The self-acceptance mirror exercise has been so powerful this year. Not only do I appear to be collapsing, or witnessing into wholeness, I should say, all these people... mostly humans (though some were questionable) of all different ages and shapes and sizes - men and women both. But I watched my own container morph and become more and more Light. I was golden... and then translucent.
When I returned from my trip I saw that I was no longer gold, but I was green and had a whole different group of people to witness. In the gold group they seemed more like they were from Wales-Norway (I know that's specific, but that's what came to me, ha!). Last night I was a mix of green, gold, and purple. I suspect it is the different Orders (gold, amethyst, and emerald) working with and through me and I'm so grateful and honored. I feel kind of funny talking about it because I was told by a pastor once shortly after my Indigo activation (maybe Oraphim walk-in to my existing Indigo neurology and experience)... anyway, he said "we don't talk about these things... they are between us and God." (or something).
And I DO see more and more how this WHOLE THING...this whole Earth exercise is between ME and me... my Godself and my Carissaself... the embodiment of Solar Christ Sophia, the expression and offspring of Holy Father and Holy Mother to restore the earth (etc.). But I also know how amazing the context and community has been in helping make this a more efficient and peaceful process. I'm starting to split here so I guess I should take a break... anyway... I go back and forth with whether it is of use or of harm to share. Of course these are my own experiences (and distortions that I am working through)... so. I guess that's it. It's okay.
Ah... I just realized it is also because of the big piece I'm healing related to Twilight Master and spiritual leader abuse. Spiritual pride has been a major stumbling block for me... a snare to imprison my Godself in negative ego and the Houses of Ego .
I'm healing though. This massively debilitating kidney pain the last two days turns out to be a blessing and aligned. It's a part of the monad embodiment, inner HG union, and heart integration process which I know I've been really working with. So grateful Melanie shared the AG page on Kidneys which, even though I was desperately looking for info online and the forum for how to support the kidneys I didn't think to look in the AG. Duh. Something happens when I am in pain where my brain shuts off and I can't figure out what to do.
Today a friend reminded me that "pain is the axis of enlightenment" and it helped me really sink into acceptance, to feel INTO the pain which seems to be helping it unravel, thanks be to God. What a wild and beautiful life this is! 111 (It's 1:11 as I write this. So many 111's lately.... even the road to Cahokia was 111 ... and all the supportive and personal numbers... 23, 54 along with the dups and trips ... )
Did I talk about how I feel that all this Ai Red Wave madness this year... especially during the Emerald-to-Sapphire bookend time (April-July)...seems to be about anchoring 15D Magenta Wave into 1D Red Wave ... I don't know 100% what I'm talking about but Charlotte may have mentioned it and I'm pulling it together from the clues I get (we're like detectives, aye?). On the way out to Cahokia...did I mention this? I don't think so... I had what felt like my ...
Let me pause and apologize for gushing again. And I know it's okay ... sweet Sabine helped me today ... I told her I was afraid to post too much in the forum because I didn't want to bother people and she asked "who would you bother?"... such a good question. My negative ego at play... VV at play. So... ramble on I shall... ha!
So when I had what I call my "walk-in" in January 2010 I described it as "God poured in through the top of my head and I poured out my feet'". The actual memory itself faded but those words (because I was constantly looking for an explanation from someone) stayed with me. That experience was very moving and I cried and snotted all over myself and I haven't been the same person since.
So on the way out to Cahokia as I was driving on a highway all of a sudden something poured in through the top of my head and seemed like something was burning in or out my feet. It was a little shocking ... a LOT shocking. Thanks be to God I have gotten relatively used to dealing with a lot of very strange things ... especially things through my head... but this was different. Didn't feel like a transit out, or a re-org or beeping brain wire thing or a pay attention thwackzing... it definitely felt like something flew into and down through my body. It reminded me of that time in 2010... but besides being shocked and trying not to fear or panic and just accept... I didn't cry or anything... in fact, I kept driving until I could get my senses about me. My feet burned for quite some time... 5-10 minutes maybe? Maybe not that long. But I seemed to hold a level of neutrality that doesn't seem possible... but it was. I did. Anyway. I don't know if that was another walk-in...someone to help with the Cahokia trip? Big things there. I keep saying Cahokia, but it was also the Mississippi... and even the Ohio and the exchanges I shared with Candice and others (who may not even be aware of their connection, and I could be wrong) it was wild!!!
Felt like work I began in 2011. I drove the same corridor through West Virginia that I drove with a burning heart (in Christ) 10 years ago and it was so powerful. Lots of transits and just felt amazing and in alignment. So much of the trip was that way... but I lost some connectivity because I didn't sufficiently prepare to care for my inner child/body and the "food" that I fed her (poison... travel/fast food) numbed my connection to spirit...or at least my sensitivity to my vessel...my HSP was dampened and the ability to feel what was going on at the level I'm used to was numbed. I want to beat myself up but I did enough of that with the poison so now I forgive and learn from it.
So anyway, I have had a feeling of fullness in my feet and legs since whatever that was...another walk-in or support or blast to try to open pathways... to anchor 15D into 1D ... maybe as part of an Atomic Body repair. I don't know. That just came out now. Sounds like in April we were anchoring 14D into 2D.
Candice and I (and her powerful daughter) shared something very special... especially on the banks of the stream in the mountains.... related to:
Seems a little private to share but I'm going to, because there is no fear, but during the beautiful moments we had baptizing each other into the spirit of Christ-Sophia.... in the name of Holy Father, Holy Mother, and Christ-Sophia.... we shared a simple and beautiful prayer where we asked to embody the LIGHT as clear vessels that the radiance of Solar Christ-Sophia could shine or heal or restore the earth ... or something like that.... anyway, at that same time it was like the sun was a spotlight that someone adjusted from the rafters and it just shifted over to shine directly on us! It was SURREAL!!!! Thanks be to God. There were many beautiful moments in the brief time we shared, but it strengthened, for me, the value of our family here on earth. The joy is magnified when we get to share these profound experiences with our family.It is time for the High Priestess to enter between the Pillars at the Temple of Solomon, embodied with a full wedded garment of light, forever dissolving the crescent moon and shadows underneath her feet. For she is the Wife of the Lamb of God Jesus Christ and it is her destiny to build the holy architecture of the New Jerusalem on earth, in perfect love and sacred marriage with her husband.
ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Shedding_the_Lunar_Woman
Whooo. I think I might be done for now. That was a lot. There's more. Always more. So much more. What a wild ride!
LOVE TO ALL!
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