What is going on here? As of last evening I had a terrible backache...all through the night and all through today. I believed it was my kidneys... I still think so. Michael thinks maybe it is my back, but I'm pretty sure it is a kidney-related upgrade... also to my solar sacrum. I was led to the "clearing solar plexus tech" meditation today too. I'd done a lot through the painful night and today... health upgrade meditation a couple times, 5 breath organ cleanse, quickstep pdd, clearing negative form, soothing core triad, clearing victim/victimizer program...
I don't know if it was divinely appointed or weakness but I did ask for help on the forum which probably provided some guardian support. Last night when I was cooking dinner and my back was hurting so bad that it took my breath away, I was led to take Nettle Tea. I looked it up and it said it was good for kidneys too... thank you Guides!!
Melanie sent me the AG article on kidneys: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Kidneys
And more than ever I think it's the kidneys and related to my Monad and heart upgrade.
"When our heart is healed, there is a fire that is ignited inside the heart that is accessed and the fire in the heart is also in the Kidneys. There is a triangle that connects the heart into the kidneys, in our Lightbody. The kidneys are in the base of the triangle from left to right and the point of the triangle is in the heart. When the heart is healed, there is a twin flame ignition in our heart and kidneys, which shifts the heart configuration. Twin flames = structure of light within the heart. So two flames ignite in the heart. The Monad is the greater flame and the physical body is the lesser flame. When this flame is ignited, there is an ignition in the heart and a fire or vital essence that comes in to the kidneys."
Last week I had that "walk-in" type experience where something fell in through the top of my head and my legs and feet were burning ... like it was opening pathways in my legs and feet, maybe for something to move out (Jan 2010 "...and I poured out my feet"). Since then I've had a fullness in my legs and feet. I had some swollen ankles at my parents house. They FEEL swollen all the time but they aren't. Just heaviness. I am reminded of a Charlotte session a few months ago where she talked about this... something to do with feet and legs and maybe even the kidneys.
I don't even have to do anything... God is taking care of all the upgrades. I just have to surrender. Watch. Stay out of fear. Stay in love. That's one thing that is beautiful... I am learning to truly love myself and I'm my FAVORITE company.
I feel like I'm so loved and supported by God... so much better to have God as a "covering" than a man. Since Michael stepped out (even though I kept nudging to change his mind to no avail... "we're going in different directions")... I have been even more supported and provided for and activated in love. Michael's love has been tremendously healing and lovely, but it's nothing like the love of Christ!
I AM Solar Christ-Sophia.
It was MY wedding ceremony on the banks of that stream in Maggie Valley. Tegan activated my solar sacrum with her hug and then I sat and held the rod-staff architecture in meditation and then Candice and I communed and then baptized eachother in Mother's life-giving crystal waters.
I am also clearing out the blood covenants and SRA and all that gunky energy from my ancestry and Cahokia (related)... so the kidneys filter the blood to purify it.
I ended my Cahokia trip in Sapphire. Earlier this year I was in Emerald (Coast), where, I just found out, there was also a Mississippian culture Indian Mound at Fort Walton.
The cardinals have been present with their ruby colors ... there was even one at Maggie Valley that showed himself. Tonight a female cardinal sat on my fence in all her glory.
Dragonflys have been big.
Hurricane/Tropical Storm Elsa swept directly over the top of us today. I suspect she was doing some cleaning of the planetary 7D axiatonial line. (Maybe that's the ley line... I get confused...one is masculine/rod related and the other is feminine/staff related).
Despite all my pain, I had lots of people talk to me today: Candice, Kirk, Melanie, Diana, Misha (in Telegram) and Evelyn and Jackie on the ESF page, and Rosemary in email. And all my siblings reached out today... had a LONG talk with Braden which was great, texted with Corie and Davin and a talk with Page on the phone. Last night talked to Davin too. And Messenger with Le'Anna. I'm sure there were more.
"Twin Flame" has come up a few times. I thought Gabe was my twin flame ... maybe that was a dream and maybe that was stream-of-thought...but it wasn't a "good" thing. More like we are cut from the same cloth.
The Gabriel/Lior situation 9:54 was in my field yesterday and the day before but I ask God to lead. I do not want another Tyrone situation, but I do want to be a Light to a brother.
I am healing my own being. God is healing me, I should say. I don't want anymore imposter spirits working through me or anyone I am around. I am an empath and feel and sense so much... I think as I am getting my lightbody sealed up and learning more, I am able to discern more of what is actually happening but I'm not strong enough yet. Even interacting with Kirk is difficult - there DOES seem to mirror luciferian energies... these are the ones we are bringing to the surface for witnessing. For ALL of these people, I am here to witness and learn and practice NOT JUDGING. Compassionately witness in acceptance and love. Applying judgement harms them and separates us all from God... it is the opposite of what we should be doing. And I'm very bad at this yet...but God is teaching me. Thank you for these teachers... Kirk is very patient as I KEEP judging him and trying to "teach" him. I cannot teach or push/pull energy for anyone. I just need to be in LOVE.
My session with Joe yesterday was so healing and the biggest takeaway was just to spend as much time as I can in nature where there is no judgement from the dogs, trees, rocks, dragonflies, vultures, etc.... everything is accepted as it is. No pushing/pulling. (Now there IS Moses BEGGING for a walk, ha! But that's from a purity of heart.)
I have found much healing and understanding and acceptance of the Gabe program as well through just talking to friends about it. Talking to Charlotte and Joe was helpful too... and I feel it is helpful for all of us to think through the interpersonal starseed dynamics. I feel peace if I never talk to Gabe though. I don't even know what I'd say. I just wanted to be friends, to learn together, but if we can't be like the butterfly with no judgement, with no comparison, with no harm-doing, then it may not be good anyway. God's will be done.
Tonight's mirror exercise I was kind of a combination of colors - green, gold, and purple maybe. Became very transparent. Thank you God. What a life.
Is 7/17 something big? 8/18? 9/19? So many wonderful numbers. Thank you for this life and mission and opportunity. I don't want to cling too tightly but I also want to be present and awake for it. It's a challenge since it seems I have consciousness on multiple dimensions and they are all in different "levels" of awakening and understanding. But this is what we're doing... merging them into one single-soul occupied God-led-being, Solar Christ-Sophia, here to reclaim the fullness of all WE ARE.
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