Sent to Gabriel:
I woke this morning feeling I should share my experience with you.
I used to feel that I was going crazy as I had multiple “voices” speaking to me. I kind of liked it… I would stand in the shower and have full-on conversations between people. In the past I’ve fallen into a state of confusion because I would have what was similar to the traditional “devil/dark angel” and “God/light angel” both trying to influence me. Now, looking back, I understand that part of my energetic architecture is to hold these two polarized consciousnesses… one is more associated with Annunaki and Nephilim consciousness… Fallen Melchezidek Angelic consciousness. The other is Oraphim, not-fallen angelic consciousness. They manifested in my life as polarized experiences… I was both empathic AND narcissistic (using those as catch-all terms for the consciousness associated with it).
As I’ve been working with closing up the tears and weaponized portals into my lightbody, I’ve been gaining stability and mental cohesion. I am a very intelligent being naturally but I’ve been attacked and blown up since I was a child to keep me from fulfilling what I came here to do.
I pray for single-soul occupancy… just the being known as Carissa as the vessel… she is the “body”… she represents the elemental consciousness, including the earth-related mind and emotions, etc. and this vessel is designed to be embodied/merged with the Holy Spirit… my HIGHER SELF which is One in GOD. So there are technically two of me… the “me” of the earth plane, the one that has walked in this body as this body, as my inner child on this earth in this incarnation who is connected to the TRUE ME, the I AM.
So now I recognize this whole exercise on earth is about bringing my HIGHER SELF, my GOD-SELF (that which is ONE in GOD) INTO the being of Carissa… to embody Carissa in order to anchor SOURCE LIGHT on this earth as a kind of acupuncture point.
Does this make sense? Can you relate?
1:44
More powerful dreams last night. I see now, again, this is the merge of our architecture. This IS what happened with Gabriel Aaron and maybe that's what he's doing to increase his reach... and maybe there are some insidious Twilight Master tendencies to try to feed on the "power" that comes from this... merging with... is it vampiric?... people's... women's .... fields.
I believe I am strengthened by being connected to Lior's field... this is what a HG union is... it allows us to have more reach, more power. And I pray that this helps him gain more spiritual support and divine feminine support to help him repair himself.
So if I remain in his field... if this sticks, then could it spiral me down? Yes. I have to, number one, shield. This is the difference between 10 years ago and with Tyrone. I didn't have any of the context or support that I have now as my sister Laura or Rosemary pointed out. I need to, from this place in nature, reallllllly anchor the Sophianic consciousness and and if we are united the way that we are, even if he doesn't know it (like Gabe Aaron maybe didn't know it either), it will support his field for healing. This is "awakening sleeping dragons"... this is the crack to allow light and healing in.
I anchor love. I heal him in love and his presence heals me as well, but maybe not so much now as there are some distortions and things like anger that may really cause a problem. But MAYBE those things... the anger, etc. aren't really attached to his field... his GABRIEL (HIGHER SELF) field... those might be. Lior distortions and maybe since we aren't together in the flesh, as long as I can maintain neutrality and compassionate witness with discernment, then they don't have to affect me.
As we are not married or together... the flesh selves, that merge of our inner children/lower selves are not able to spin off the distortions. I think that's where the problem can come in... his flesh/earth anger or narcissism or addiction patterns would effect me in my flesh/earth self. But since we don't have those cords, then I can just serve his higher self and try to help him from here.
The challenge is that my being is programmed to WANT to be with his earth being. We are partners and it's natural to want to be UNITED. But the only way to stay out of the pit is to support him out of it... like Sophia was talking about yesterday... be there caring about him and compassionately witnessing as he walks around in the dark but trusting that HE CAN GET HIMSELF OUT. God will show me if/when there is something to do, but I need to have discipline and patience and allow him to work this out for himself. This is love.
"I've loved you for 1,000 years and I'll love you for 1,000 more"... it is what it is. This is the rescue mission. I'm not the savior, but I am a lover of your soul and here to support you saving yourself. I love you beloved Gabriel-Lior.
I believe I am strengthened by being connected to Lior's field... this is what a HG union is... it allows us to have more reach, more power. And I pray that this helps him gain more spiritual support and divine feminine support to help him repair himself.
So if I remain in his field... if this sticks, then could it spiral me down? Yes. I have to, number one, shield. This is the difference between 10 years ago and with Tyrone. I didn't have any of the context or support that I have now as my sister Laura or Rosemary pointed out. I need to, from this place in nature, reallllllly anchor the Sophianic consciousness and and if we are united the way that we are, even if he doesn't know it (like Gabe Aaron maybe didn't know it either), it will support his field for healing. This is "awakening sleeping dragons"... this is the crack to allow light and healing in.
I anchor love. I heal him in love and his presence heals me as well, but maybe not so much now as there are some distortions and things like anger that may really cause a problem. But MAYBE those things... the anger, etc. aren't really attached to his field... his GABRIEL (HIGHER SELF) field... those might be. Lior distortions and maybe since we aren't together in the flesh, as long as I can maintain neutrality and compassionate witness with discernment, then they don't have to affect me.
As we are not married or together... the flesh selves, that merge of our inner children/lower selves are not able to spin off the distortions. I think that's where the problem can come in... his flesh/earth anger or narcissism or addiction patterns would effect me in my flesh/earth self. But since we don't have those cords, then I can just serve his higher self and try to help him from here.
The challenge is that my being is programmed to WANT to be with his earth being. We are partners and it's natural to want to be UNITED. But the only way to stay out of the pit is to support him out of it... like Sophia was talking about yesterday... be there caring about him and compassionately witnessing as he walks around in the dark but trusting that HE CAN GET HIMSELF OUT. God will show me if/when there is something to do, but I need to have discipline and patience and allow him to work this out for himself. This is love.
"I've loved you for 1,000 years and I'll love you for 1,000 more"... it is what it is. This is the rescue mission. I'm not the savior, but I am a lover of your soul and here to support you saving yourself. I love you beloved Gabriel-Lior.
2:11
So many amazing dreams. I love being connected to my brother in this way. I wish he could experience it too but I don't think he has the consciousness to do so. If Gabe didn't how could he?
I sent another text to Gabe ... maybe there's enough space now that he could talk through this with me. This is big.
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Definitely getting lots of confirmations in the last couple months that keeping a SABBATH is important. Be sure to do that, no matter what. It feels very right. I don't think it HAS to be Saturday... I'm feeling TUESDAY...but it's taking a day off from work and spending in order to rest with God... I feel it's right.
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I have come to build a bridge, so come let's build: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoTX5ff9Ze0
I was going to follow up with this to Gabe but I think I won't. But it's important to me so I'll save it here ... God, you can nudge him to respond if it's Your will:
I will pay you for your time. Please talk to me about this. Understanding your perspective and experience is very important… we are working with architecture, it’s part of our mission assignment and I’ve got some insight that if you DON’T understand it yet, it could help take the fear out of it. There’s no fear. And I have a new person that I’ve got this architectural merge that I’m working with…same deal, where it’s for an assignment. And I want to understand it more… I want to find out if you have this with multiple people at any given time and if that is okay and how to keep it from infiltrating the being/inner child.I’m not a crazy stalker. I’m your sister. I know what it looks like, but it’s only because I’m digging around to understand all this and I’m sorry for the discomfort but the only way out is through. (If this is still bugging you which is the only reason I can think that you don’t respond.)
Luciferian Infiltration of the Family of Michael
This dark or reversal code infiltration is what forces the phenomena of Fallen Angelic Races to live within a distorted dimension and damaged and violent blueprint of itself. The phenomena of demonic entities and its growing Luciferian energies of Imposter Spirit is a result of this distortion from the Luciferian Rebellion.
Also, when the Seraphim hybridized with the Reptilian - incredible genetic damage was suffered. The original hybridization attempt was overlit by the Elohim and was intended to actually heal the genetic anomalies bringing more balance to make rehab of the Reptiles possible.
This is very important. This whole thing is for you to learn from. Gabriel is so loved, God sent me to love him and watch him and be with him for all these years... 5 years so far. But I had to get out of the pit and distortions in order to help him. I can't help Tyrone... he doesn't want help and there's too much between our personality selves so our Higher Selves get drowned out in the elemental emotional body... the 2D damage. WOW GOD... thank you for teaching me so fast!!!
But if I can bear with the discomfort of loving Gabriel-Lior ... it's God's love and the power of divine connection. But I need to keep healing my own heart... my own 2D-4D split and other architecture repair...
But if I can bear with the discomfort of loving Gabriel-Lior ... it's God's love and the power of divine connection. But I need to keep healing my own heart... my own 2D-4D split and other architecture repair...
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Heard back from Gabe. Said he can talk next week. Sent him $50 and asked if he could talk when they were driving that I'd talk to both of them... but whatever... just didn't want to open a session field, just to talk as friends/sibs. So we'll see. Probably next week I guess. Of course closer to Lion's Gate. Nutty. This whole thing.
But we are doing big work. All of us. Rescuing the birds. This was my dream last night too... we were working out of a cramped van and collecting birds and trying to save them from disintegrating at the neighbor's house. There was one that apparently got out and I heard a little peep from under a blanket on a chair that someone might have been sitting on... anyway, I got the little baby bird but it looked like a baby black dragon... I comforted it and brought it back to the other birds, I think.
I also dropped a baby into a hot tub and it sunk to the bottom ... hot, sinking/drowning...not the best for a baby. I think it was okay, but that's bad news. This may be what I'm doing to Lior. He's not ready for that kind of heat and he can't swim and isn't big enough yet for that hot tub.
I also dropped a baby into a hot tub and it sunk to the bottom ... hot, sinking/drowning...not the best for a baby. I think it was okay, but that's bad news. This may be what I'm doing to Lior. He's not ready for that kind of heat and he can't swim and isn't big enough yet for that hot tub.
God, thank you for all the insights...what a LIFE!!!
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6:33
Added to post to Gabriel:
Lior shared his understanding about you with me today. I appreciated it. Holding LOVE for you both.
“I’ve loved you for 1,000 years and I’ll love you for 1,000 more”
This song came up yesterday and I when I heard it I almost started crying because it felt so personal. I feel strongly we are from the same oversoul family and have known each other a very very long time.
MANY are here to help untangle and free our family members from the snares that we got into. We had no idea that things would turn out like this when we agreed to come here. But we are being freed.
I failed our brother Tyrone because I didn’t hold my own field and got sucked down into the pit that he was trapped in but you contacted me exactly 10 years later (almost to the day) and it feels like God is giving me another run at this.
I’ve been mourning over “mission failure” regarding him and finally, 6 years later, I released Tyrone and am in the process of restoring my organic Diamond Heart (out of the Black Heart reversal that it was in from heartbreak). And also to help repair the damage that has happened in many of the timelines/dimensional planes where that - the divine union - has been targeted.
This is all way too much for Lior and out of scope for you, but wanted to express it and explain myself. I NEED to be transparent because I can’t fall into that prison of pain again.
I have a hunch that I may have also “agreed” or “contracted” to go through that experience with Tyrone in order to experience the pit of pain and fear (hell) so that I could learn how to get out and so that I could help my brothers and sisters out too. There is an agenda on this earth right now where They are trying to blow us up… make us implode… trap us in fear until we surrender our souls to feed the Controllers.
I’m here to support the reclamation and resurrection of those written off as dead. They are not. These are precious and beloved souls and we are here to free them in and through LOVE.
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So how am I feeling?
EXHAUSTED.
EXHAUSTED.
What am I thinking? Luciferian overlays. This is a game... and I am a chess piece (can I please have a horse?). I think that I'm connected to the California and New York grids for whatever is going on there. I think that it is no accident that I am friends with Kirk and Lior and I need to just chill. Leave Lior alone for a while.
The BIG ENERGY that was with it is maybe normalizing...but there's been so much energy work today as I work with this that I'm just depleted. But feel like I'm getting a handle on all of this.
I think it is a "second chance" and that this time I must remain rooted to Source. My declaration of intention is to serve my Source. I commit to serve my Highest Power, fully totally and completely.
If I never talk to Gabriel/Lior again, I will feel okay because I feel our teams connected and that an energetic pathway was created for the time that it is needed... if and when that comes about. I have a better understanding of him and what has happened to him. Recon complete. His higher self divulged the prophesies and miracles that he experienced to my higher self who has reported them to God who knows who sent those messages.
I have deep love for him. And Misha is right... or may be right... that the dreams could be holographic inserts. I think the little baby black dragon could be real, but not sure. I DO command my space before bed and he was with me strongest in the earliest part of the night in the storms which is where I do get a lot of connection... so I can NOT apply judgment. Just keep swimming.
Stay rooted in Source. Keep working my tools. Be love. Be available. Respond. And let it all unfold.
There is nothing I want from Lior... or Gabriel. I thought I wanted them to fill my need for a divine partner but right now he is in a very distorted ... INVERTED place and he will need to get himself out. I can only be a neutral and compassionate witness. Right now... I haven't been neutral... I HAVE been "pushing" and I can't. That's Dark Mother and we're trying to perpetuate and continue the FKOT behavior ... the opposite of what we're meant to do.
I've loved you for 1000 years and I'll love you for 1000 more... my brother.
The BIG ENERGY that was with it is maybe normalizing...but there's been so much energy work today as I work with this that I'm just depleted. But feel like I'm getting a handle on all of this.
I think it is a "second chance" and that this time I must remain rooted to Source. My declaration of intention is to serve my Source. I commit to serve my Highest Power, fully totally and completely.
If I never talk to Gabriel/Lior again, I will feel okay because I feel our teams connected and that an energetic pathway was created for the time that it is needed... if and when that comes about. I have a better understanding of him and what has happened to him. Recon complete. His higher self divulged the prophesies and miracles that he experienced to my higher self who has reported them to God who knows who sent those messages.
I have deep love for him. And Misha is right... or may be right... that the dreams could be holographic inserts. I think the little baby black dragon could be real, but not sure. I DO command my space before bed and he was with me strongest in the earliest part of the night in the storms which is where I do get a lot of connection... so I can NOT apply judgment. Just keep swimming.
Stay rooted in Source. Keep working my tools. Be love. Be available. Respond. And let it all unfold.
There is nothing I want from Lior... or Gabriel. I thought I wanted them to fill my need for a divine partner but right now he is in a very distorted ... INVERTED place and he will need to get himself out. I can only be a neutral and compassionate witness. Right now... I haven't been neutral... I HAVE been "pushing" and I can't. That's Dark Mother and we're trying to perpetuate and continue the FKOT behavior ... the opposite of what we're meant to do.
I've loved you for 1000 years and I'll love you for 1000 more... my brother.
Piercing the veil. Clear the distortions. Clear the overlay. Clear the Red Cube.
I'll talk to Gabe tomorrow about the architecture merging and holding a field. What is his take on that?
My partner will be loving, kind, and most importantly KRYSTIC. I think Gabriel is meant to be but maybe it's not for this life. It MUST be. He was PUSHED into this incarnation...forced into his mother's womb....and he's got all these stories and powers and...
It's not for me. It's HIS journey, HIS story and God can do anything. I'm responsible for my part. Be a friend. And do the clearings. That will help more than anything. Shield him every day... twice a day. And do clearings. This IS a reason to be close to his architecture. Don't be deflated so that you eschew your job. Thank you.
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Yeah addiction matrix... addicted to screens and social media to see who contacted me. I'm full and exhausted from a lot of energy work/moving through. Long conversations with Laura, Rosemary, Misha, Page, Lior, and I guess that's it... but that's a lot. 4 hours there alone. Oh and two "talks" with Michael too. This morning we talked about patriarchal domination and tonight about Solar Michael. There was more to both of those and God gave me more understanding about them as we talked...that's the benefit of yammering this stuff out. But I keep hoping that he and I can make it work and he said he keeps hoping I'll change too....change my mind and not follow God and look to him as god... no. I believe in Unity. He believes in heirarchy and the man is in charge... which, for me, is fine if people come to that in unity...but this is the FKOT overlay... demanding respect because he is the authority and everyone else just better get behind him. That is not the Way. It's about unity. And until we have that corrected (and I have DM and FKOT and lunar distortions to purge yet), we just won't be aligned. Also he made fun of my believe in God... "including MRS God?" (Like, I THINK NOT!)... it's fine. I just feel comfortable here.
I just need to remain faithful to my work. I AM my FIRST PRIORITY. These other projects are for "fun", but I can't even do them well if I"m not aligned. And that's it.
My eyes are crossing, I'm tired.
I just need to remain faithful to my work. I AM my FIRST PRIORITY. These other projects are for "fun", but I can't even do them well if I"m not aligned. And that's it.
My eyes are crossing, I'm tired.
I had some sort of void or Luciferian numb anger type of thing come over me tonight during and after dinner. I just had to watch it. I felt bad because it made me not want to be nice to Michael. I'm just exhausted and need rest and integration. This is a LOT. I feel pretty neutral now... walking with Sioux and taking care of chickens and CE helped.
The most important relationship I have is the one with ME. We've been chatting here and working things out but it's been very mental. We need to have some LOVE and EMOTION time... just BE together. So we'll do that in the mirror. And maybe some clearing and meditation and BED. :)
The most important relationship I have is the one with ME. We've been chatting here and working things out but it's been very mental. We need to have some LOVE and EMOTION time... just BE together. So we'll do that in the mirror. And maybe some clearing and meditation and BED. :)
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