Learning so much

1:23

What a life. So much education in the night. I got woken at 444 again with information. And suggested to do a very powerful meditation (Reclaiming Christos Body) which I did just now again. 

Kirk is turning out to be very interesting....an interesting relationship. I appreciate him and am glad we are friends. I like the way we talk to each other and how direct he is and how he calls me on my crap. 

The Lior thing has turned out to be a tremendous gift to help me release the dregs of Tyrone and understand what happened a little better. He was steeped in Luciferian influence and I took it on in the flesh and wasn't ready, not to mention the fact I was steeped in Lunar forces and Dark Mother (with the intent to address FKOT and Rod repair, really).

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In the last few months I've been drawn to my wedding finger a lot. You know how you kind of feel for your ring with your thumb? I keep doing that and missing it, subconsciously. Last time I saw Dr. Puja she said there was something with that finger too (she's super intuitive). 

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Oh I woke today after lots of lessons in the night, knowing that Gabriel/Lior ISN'T my HG divine partner... I doubt it anyway... but he IS my beloved brother and I AM here to help him. But the consumptive modeling energy is NOT helpful... the "fill my void" energy. No. That's NOT what I'm here to do. That's what the Red Cube wants me to do to blow us up. This is a very important mission to reclaim my brother from the reversal he's stuck in. And God and HE will have to work it out. I just need to stand by and be available in case I'm needed. That's it. I've done and said what I need to. 

I did send Gavriel this earlier...sent at 11:54

I was sitting in my hammock in the sun thinking how grateful to God I was for you. In just a few conversations, you helped me heal, understand, and integrate the traumatic experience I had with our brother Tyrone. It’s dissolved now and I’m free. I have lots more work to do but that was a big piece and necessary to be relieved of as I walk through the Lion’s Gate as Heir to the Throne. (A collective “Heir” - this is the Messiah... it’s a gestalt . It’s Israel... AM Israel Melchezidek pure/diamond hearted beings.) Anyway, this is what we can do as siblings, as children of God. Lior didn’t even have to be involved- just the Higher Selves of both of us coming together helped me to remember more of who I AM and heal. So as I was thinking about this and how it’s such a blessing to be able to hold space and what I get to do (with and for others too...these are mission assignments) and this song came on and I felt nudged to share it because this is how I feel about you, my brother. https://youtu.be/61Wm_qlVD4Q

Ps. I have no expectations that you respond. We are working and connected on a spiritual plane and that is enough. But if Lior could benefit from an ear or another point of view (because that’s what I’m meant to do - I’m a mediator and balancer and sometimes have to play devils advocate to trigger another way to look at things. But sometimes I just listen ... probably need to do more of just listening and trust the energy and spirit to do the balancing. Yes. That, Carissa!) Anyway, just want to be sure you know that as much as I keep talking to you, you don’t need to respond... it’s part of what we’re working out in the spiritual planes (which is also part of planetary reclamation and soul retrieval). Wild, I know. But this is what we signed up to do and why we came here and we were made for it. You took on a HUGE mission/project and I send all my love and support for your success.

1:44 

Today's Daily Glossary Pick is SOOOO GOOD: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Spiritual_Warfare

So aligned. I pulled it up at the same time Kirk was writing to me about Darkness. Just watch. Discern.

Oh! My 4:44am note was about Lior and noting "he is like a counterpart - another aspect of my own soul. In many timelines."

I talked about how I was looking at him and us as native americans and other tribes. Oh man. This whole things is so good. I yammered on a lot. Maybe I'll type it out.

4:44am daaang, woken and nudged - seeseesee - to write this. Dreaming of Lior.
noting he is like a counterpart- another aspect of my own soul
In many timelines.
As native americans, I was just looking at him/us. And other tribes.
So commitment to...helping...I feel bad about that term... "help is the sunny side of control" but it's helping, serving ME.
not doing is as STS...of I shouldn't- don't want to- It's been a following of my soul_
just trying to see and be honest. becuase is it me trying to get a re-do w/Tyhrone and to heal and feel that love again? Yes, that too.
I would love him but we aren't compatible. Even if/when he is healed in 5 years - the "home and family" piece is huge.
I'm the one that I love.
Oh. but he is me.
We are All.
God will send a Krystic HG partner.
Lior is "deeds" and a brother and oversoul extension and connection to support the grids and recon/infogathering mission to check on what's happened to our family. He'll get out too. It's a big one...and it's an honor to hold space for this powerful being.
Is "powerful" the Thoth Luciferian signature? Why do I like it?
Strong? Strength? Faith?
I like his tenderness and humor and love for others and sensitivity too.
I think he's handsome and smart.
I don't like the technology piece.
I need to anchor Mother energy and support him through prayer and listening. That's it. 
There is no "future" for us... and don't think of future anyway. Be here now. 

 

5:10 Whoa- this "Reclaiming Christos Body" med (I pulled it just now) is perfectly addressing this and explaining what I'm doing (can't read word) the collective Ancestral and/or something else- mindslides
this is so perfect and helpful. Thank you God!
I pulled and went to sleep with "Breaking Bondage Loops" and now this! Wow! (I did run the clearing neg form between too...sometime in the night.
LISTEN. and maybe do this later.
"Beloved let go of ego self."
"Beloved let go of fears and choose."
etc.
5:13 "release fear of darkness.
"fear of being in the void."
This is so perfect! God!! Whoaaaahhh!
This is all...Lior too... part of my Lion's Gate upgrade.
Thank you God!!!
and hopefully talking to Gabe will close that chapter. But its all for my soul's evolution and these are soul aspects!
mind blown 5:15
8:44 (?)... could be 8:14.
We communicate in pictures in our natural state - indigos and starseeds anyway. that's why its so effective to speak that way with Caden and Misha and I. (Corie showed me this.)
I dreamed a couple times of this .gif to send to Lior but I don't remember what it was. But this was an important lesson.
"We've come to build a bridge to build a bridge. Build build build"... Nahko 
in my head. This is the work.
Build a bridge.

I see now. those reversal luciferian distorted men - Tyrone and Lior - are ANTI-HG partners. Darkness, not Light. Look at the difference - feel the difference between Michael. Even Joe was a true partner- just damaged (like me) but Krystic.
Tyrone and Lior's energy signatures are black. Oh, but...well...when I did the test...Tyrone was that darkest of blacks. I thought Lior was white /a match. I just did it again and it's invisible.
I think we are Indigos and have both light and dark consciousness....who wins? The one you feed. Anyway, these are NOT my partner. I AM my partner first. And when the real deal shows up, it will not be forced and or involve push/pulling... I will just be wrapped in rainbows. Not tornados!
This is all a lesson to help me. Last healing and purge of Tyrone. And also to help brother Lior. And also to support the grids in NYC and the FKOT purge and help awaken a sleeping dragon.
An honor. Don't get caught up in it. this isn't your divine union partner. Not as he is. This is dangerous energy but you came here for this. You're equipped. Just work your tools. And remember HE has to do the work for himself. If he does, he can get himself out. Remember for you, people threw down ropes but YOU had to climb out.

That's it. 

So I've landed on, and feel strongest about the fact that both Tyrone and Lior are brothers, family, and even aspects of my own soul. I am no longer assigned to Tyrone and what I've seen seems like it's a really dire situation. But I release him. And pray to God to save his soul and know he will.
With Lior, I DO feel assigned to him. He is my brother and potentially has been my lover in past lives - I feel warmth all over when I say that...love... so that must be true. But his programming this life as well as all he's taken on seems to me that he's not a candidate for this life as a partner, but he IS family and he IS assigned to me to pray for and serve. Even this that I'm doing, trying to figure it out, helps him. Because if I can see clearly and remove the negative ego overlays, I can be a compassionate witness and the eyes of God who can then accurately send him what he needs. There are teams and teams and teams working on this. It's not just us.

So are our energy templates merged? Or is this just a mixture of mission briefings, holographic inserts, and psychic attack that I have to wade through? Maybe that. Probably that. 

Was my energy template merged with Gabe? Feels like it. Was it from an "error" in un-HGS shielded session space? I don't know. But the result was big spiritual movement - yes attacks, but also purges, downloads, and planetary gridwork. 

It's done now though so that's what matters. But I do want to know how it works! 

"I release control and surrender to the flow of love, that will heal me." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HdIEfWC0xA

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Did I tell you that Michael asked me not to go to his class anymore? The week before last. I was about to tell him I didn't want to go but felt I needed to wait and be quiet and eventually he told ME. This was important for it to come from him. I release control and surrender to the flow...

This is a most miraculous time of metamorphosis! Lots butterflies and bees and birds showing up to support me. Today so many birds.... saw a hawk, and vulture, and cardinal, and happy swooping dancing birds. And soooo many dragonflies!

Release control and surrender to the flow.

Remember today's Glossary Pick - SPIRITUAL WARFARE. Watch and learn.
Also the "suggested for today" was so good too ... I accidentally lost it yesterday when I switched screens and was bummed and God gave me the same one today!! Thank you God! 

"These black forces leading back to the parallel black hole system are spinning misinformation to Light Workers or vulnerable people generally getting them to attack others to play out victimizer dramas to breed extreme confusion, chaos and paranoia at every level. For some people it's very hard to place their trust anywhere at this time because these distortions and deceptions are very heavy with an agenda to create chaos so people cannot tell what is real or what is false. This is a gas lighting manipulation technique to destroy the inner spiritual compass or the heart guidance of the people. Please pay attention and see this working in the mainstream. If you can see it when it’s playing out you can clear it, you can move around it so it does not impact you."

"I firmly believe that the planet in its current state will catalyze a lot more people, a lot more males into spiritual emergency and this concerns me greatly for those people that do not have a strong, loving presence or compassionate female presence or anchor or in the ascension or spiritual awakening awareness. In this phase I especially feel that the male aspects of this Earth desperately need the prayer and spiritual power, the real unconditional love and empathy of the feminine aspects of the Holy Mother to help strengthen and support them through a very difficult phase." 

"Please do not let this overwhelm you but be informed. Pay attention to the people around you as you may as well be able to help them. Awareness and Spiritual connection protects you and protects others around you. Please know that as you pray, as you consecrate your body to God, as you shield yourself, as you commit to GSF and Cosmic Sovereign Law in the Christ Consciousness this puts a damper on their ability to interfere."

"As a GSF being you have rights to repeat and command the Laws of God in service to the greater good and with your clear consent you are powerful to claim other beings as free under Human Divine Rights under God's Universal Laws. All humans have this right but they do not understand it so you, in many cases can act as their representative if you view them being harmed, trapped or enslaved by these forces without their direct knowledge."

 https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Spiritual_Warfare

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3:03 4:44 

Kirk pointed out the 444 to me, which I might have seen myself but he said it first. He's freaking me out. Yesterday he said I was his only friend. Today he said "we are one". Which we are. But he's high and on a bad trip right now. Again, genetic equal, we're here working this piece together. We have distortions. He's got a vendetta against Lisa and he could be trying to dark portal through me to get to her. But he does also genuinely appear to like to talk to me...or at me... or whatever. I just need to be careful. SEE THE MASSIVE STORM COMING?? Be careful. Take cover. God has your back. You're safe tucked into ChristSophia I AM. I love you. 

5:22 and 5:23 Kirk threw his weed away. 
I opened the most incredible care/gift package from Rosemary. I'm almost in tears over all this magic.
She sent me this beautiful bird gourd with a strand