7/23

 8:44, 9:44, 10:10, 10:11, 11:10, 11:22, 11:23, 7:22, 11:44

I did a "bowl burning" (sans a bowl) tonight. Got an email from some list that I have no idea what it was to invite me to partake in it... it's 7/23, the full moon, and the opening of Lion's Gate. Felt very aligned considering the work we are stepping into now. 

Gabriel Benchaim (Lior, but his real person) wrote back to me for the first time tonight. Just a cryptic message in Hebrew that said that "at the end of his writing he lists Michael". I don't know what it meant so I sent a gushy message back so we'll see. What I feel about that guy is that he is like me... a brother and a troubled one. Reminds me a LOT of Tyrone... similar energy signature. This is why I've always been drawn to him. I felt recently it was part of an Indigo3 contract as well and an Annunaki signature. But he's a fighter and beautiful and sensitive and brave and wise. Also fragmented and addicted and ensnared. I need to be careful because I am drawn to him but he isn't a safe and comfortable "live in a peaceful HG Union type of prospect". It's weird that I even think of him as a prospect but I have always... maybe we were together in a different life? Or maybe he IS actually another member of Tyrone's Avatar (or Tyrone was a member of his? Whatever! Ha!)... but I remember watching him get excited to see Stefani and then they started dating and then got married and part of me was like "wait, WE were supposed to be together!".  But I don't know if I was married to Michael at the time or not. I think so. So that's weird. 

I've always known or felt that Michael wasn't my divine partner, my soul-mate. I "settled" but was also looking at him to save me and tell me what to do because I felt I had been blown up. My heart and being was in so many pieces after Tyrone. I think this year I finally finally finally am relatively healed. Maybe even Rosemary's presence so close to him, and maybe even Gabe's and my request for Gabe to go "wake a sleeping giant" there could have helped unhook me. Not sure. But I'm glad to be free.

Michael said yesterday that I could start praying the 12-D shield around him! And he heard me talking to his daughter about past lives today. And he seemed to support me in the burn bowl exercise. It feels really good to be FREE and not to feel controlled and condemned (too much) and to just appreciate one another. No co-dependency games... or a lot fewer. (On my side, of course.) And like this message from Gabriel/Lior makes me think about whether I'm supposed to end up with Michael or stay with him until his next chapter or what. I don't want him to die. I want him to be happy and I want to be happy. I want to live in worship with my beloved. But I am still working on my relationship with my personal HG union and it's not time. Closer, but not time so just wait. And pray and seek and humble myself. And trust God's plan and timing and FEEL. 

These incredible rocks are such good friends to me. I need to get to know them more. Spend time with them and nature and rest and heal. And read... read love. Enjoy life. Be happy.