Struggling with balancing what I should/shouldn’t share. Trying to balance the need for connection to community and sharing pieces so we can all put our own and the collective puzzle together… but also wanting to be in tune with my intentions and not fuel negative ego further.
Last night at 3:23am I made a note that said “Universal Shadow?” and at 4am I said I “was a shadow… merge with another aspect or clearing” and then the rest mind slid away but I remember it being profound.energeticsynthesis.com/resource-tools/ne...655-universal-shadow
ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Universal_Shadow
Led me to what I wanted to talk about:
ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Black_Dragon_Avatar_Collectives
I've wondered if part of my Indigo3 contract was having both Black Dragon and Aurora Dragon consciousness in my being. Today I was praying again for single soul occupancy and fulfillment of that contract. I may be getting close. But maybe it’s not that I’m actually holding a Black Dragon in my being, but maybe I have one sitting on me... or had one. I remember meditating last year a couple times and would see it sleeping there and it would open an eye and peek at me.
I have seen that I am rainbow. I saw my hair and cells as rainbow before but my skin is too. This makes me think I am embodying the Aurora dragon moreso. I have miraculous tangible Sophia Aurora support showing up too. This must be like the story about which wolf you feed . Thanks be to God and Lisa/Tomás/ES and all the other Guardian teams here to help me, I am feeding the right dragon.
Lots of beloved elemental messengers… cardinal seems to cross my path daily, reminding me of the work we are doing to correct the hijacked Red Wave energy (bringing 15D Founder Father Magenta Ray into the 1D Red Wave). Heron comes regularly to remind me about stillness, inner reflection, and meditation. Dragonflies are my constant companions. Blue, Green, and teal-vested ones. The grey and black ones remind me of Black Subtle Forces and shadow clearing. Also bees, butterflies and an assortment of birds including my vulture friend now and then. Trees and rocks are also quite vocal these days.
As I was writing today I realized that I AM THE PLAYING FIELD. I AM THE CHESS BOARD. I AM THE CHECKERBOARD. Am I the mutation??... or ...no... but it looks like that.
I’ve been called to work with underworld energies this year… I’m in a 7/7-8/8 doorway of something big. Snake has come up quite a few times, again related to the underworld energies. Today is “World Snake Day” per a friend. ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Caduceus Also very related.
I was dreaming about magnets at 5:50am and know that so much of what we’ve got going on is related to magnetism and that field. This is another reason I can’t or shouldn’t write… the connections are developing in my waking consciousness and with the God-given tools here in ES, I am able to learn and hold that in my 3D being better, but I’m not there yet. That said, the truth is already in the Universal Being I AM and I guess it’s my negative ego that gets frustrated that I can’t access it better to share.
Oh well. I’m feeling so grateful to be involved and on this mission team with all of you beautiful souls. I get glimpses and downloads of the work more often now and am floored at what we’ve got going on. This is another reason that I WANT to share more… when I read something someone else writes and it’s connected to work that I know I’m a part of and experiences that I’m having, it really enlivens and excites and inspires me more so I want to do that for others too. But I don’t seem to be able to yet. So. It’s okay. Just keep swimming… lol
I know I write too much. But even if I wrote every day, or multiple times a day, it wouldn't capture it all. I know you can all relate that we are experiencing so much on so many levels simultaneously - it’s amazing that we haven’t exploded! I've had to cut back a little on journaling (in my personal journal) because it’s just too much… and really it doesn’t matter. I wanted to capture these experiences to hold on to for later, but it’s not necessary because my arms will be full later too. I just need to go with the flow in the transfiguration. It’s being recorded in the consciousness records and that should be enough…. But I know it helps me to process and unpack the experiences by writing them so it’s all about balance. But not with a spirit of clinging. No more manipulation of energy… no more holding… no more clinging… no more resisting… no more pushing or pulling… I just need to step into the flow and ride the wave and try to maintain consciousness through it!
Last night I went to my first ecstatic dance and it was incredible!! I dance like this alone at home but to be out in nature (even in high eighties heat) among others dancing their hearts open, was so powerful and beautiful and good for my body and soul!
Feels like divine holy union is up in the fields now. Our beloveds are calling. We’re getting ready. Finding the fullness of love within ourselves, supported by our true divine parents who are readying us and arranging the bridegroom… many are baptized and readied but we must keep our lamps filled with lamp oil (the anointing/chrisma) and keep watch. It feels really good to know our beloved is closer. I dreamt of him last night.
He was strong, independent, smart, and kind. We knew that we were brought together by God and although I sensed that he was apprehensive, he was also committed. I wished that I was more beautiful (physically) for him and he disclosed that he was still working with an addiction and trauma but it was okay, we were going to support/heal one another in love. I felt such love and excitement! We couldn’t be together quite yet as I still had a project I had to finish. In the meantime it looked like he was going to have to sleep in a bed that looked like Grandpa’s bed in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory but with 5-6 people head to toe. I digress… and even if it was a holographic insert… okay, yeah, it was… it still felt nice.
Oh, I wanted to mention that yesterday was “boundaries” education day and God had me re-listen to Karen’s talk on boundaries and then it was talked about and practiced at the dance. I have a lot of lessons and opportunities to practice this. I guess it’s back to my project and assignment to heal this slice of nephilm consciousness. I had to put on narcissistic pants in order to choose to take them off. This is one of many jobs I’ve got here and it is really hard for my soul because I do not like being a bad guy, but I’ve had to be both the “bad” AND “good” guy in order to choose to be the Christ-Sophia still point neutral compassionate witness guy. I feel really bad and sometimes I get confused about whether a behavior is related to that consciousness or if it’s organic and part of how I’m supposed to show up to support someone else’s healing. But it’s definitely great food for thought (or rather for heart-based processing).
There’s more but I’ll leave it here. I love you guys!!!
ps. May I also just mention the CROWN that has shown up a lot? And I have an important appointment with healing on 8/8 Lion’s Gate having to do with Tiger’s Eye and Heir to the Throne.
pss. The debilitating kidney (or lower back?) ascension symptom came on 7/7 and I couldn’t walk for about a day and a half then it gradually dissipated. Now it hurts in the mornings but gets better through the day.
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