Gavriel

The thing is, when I stepped into the Lion's Gate... Gavriel was there. This is the same time... this is the time we merge with our HG partner. Forget about that. You guys are placeholders for this ascending, healing, reclamation, resurrection consciousness. He is a genetic equal (or stronger) too... like Tyrone. Part of Tyrone's monadic group. Given to me when he abandoned ship. It brought me comfort to feel like I could still see him even though it wasn't him exactly. But it IS my beloved... same same. But is it my beloved in the anti-HG group? The black dragon HG (aka anti-HG) group? I'm afraid it might be. But it could also just be someone with the same work as me... which makes sense as an HG union.... so we DO take on the darkness to drag it to the Light.

This person is not a threat as a partner... lol... he's in NYC... you know it's possible. Who knows what God will do. Nature will help heal him. 

I feel him ... his architecture nearby. It's the genetic equal feeling that I had with Gabe too. I want to say that I'd rather choose Gabriel Aaron but number one, he doesn't choose me. He never has in any incarnation, he just wants to be a guru... like Ram Dass' guru... he has "powers" that he uses for his own glory for people to look to him and to feed his spiritual ego/twilight masterness... this is what I've done too. Or maybe I've fallen into the trap every time? I don't know. But I think that one is over. It was a year and it was great and I think I supported him and he supported me and we supported the earth and now I don't 11:55 feel him anymore, so that's good. 

I do not need to fall in love with these men. I can help them. I'm on the Rod Repair team and can just do that as a partner. Please. Right? I can do more good with others and with God as my HG partner. 

But talk to Lior. Talk to him. Soon. Now get your chores done!

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The thing is... GOD will give me all I need in the moment in order to support his precious son. I don't need to worry about it. But I may be taking on another huge project... another possibility of getting sucked into the metatronic pit of doom which I do NOT want to happen. Is it happening already? Look at my mental body spinning out. 

So yes... LOOK at it. Observe it. And then let it go. And just BE. You have the tools and support you need to do all that is in God's will and plan for your life. I want to be aligned to my heroic probability, my ascending vehicle, my highest path for the most meaningful and supportive (for the earth/humanity) experience here. I want to do WELL. 

I see that. You will. Just remain close to ME. 

12:44

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Well dannnng. I had a beautiful conversation with Lior that was almost normal. I held space for him to share and he did the same. I feel immediate kinship with him.

4:44

I have a had a beautiful time connecting with Lior today. Too beautiful and too much. I need to pull back. I did get to pull his chart and check our compatibility which is pretty high. But it brought in a layer that isn't maybe entirely helpful. I'll need to unpack my feelings but right now I feel full. 

Is it the Red Cube? Don't lose sight. Is it the opportunity to override the Red Cube into a pure and supportive relationship that is not about consumptive modeling. I do not want to vampirize him. I do not want to do any harm. I want to help him process and heal. Right now I need to just let him be. I love him though. Always have. Must be a past life connection too...or just on a soul level....

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5:23 6:06 - we're both indigos. I'm very full... very intense energy bordering on confusion. No, straight up confusion. This is 100% a "re-do" of 10 years go. This whole thing is a mirror... same players (oversoul wise) too. But how do I do it in a way that is aligned and honors God? How do I keep my mind out of it? How do I remain faithful and clear? LOTS OF MEDITATIONS.

6:16

Did I tell you Lior's birthday is 9/9? I love him. CARISSAAAA! Stop. You don't need that energy. That is NOT helpful. That is exactly what he was saying was the problem. Everyone is drawn to him. And I understand. 

Isn't this whole thing a part of the healing that we're doing ... part of the shadow clearing? The final part of clearing Tyrone?

6:23

Sent to Lior:

_What do you think that prophesy means about the lamb with one leg? I hope you’ll tell me again. I have a terrible memory (has to do with being on lots of dimensions simultaneously as well as a “mind slide” programming/attack. Please never take it personally. Every word you say to me is precious. 

Also, I DO vaguely remember talking to you a few years ago … maybe I remember the Florida thing… OH! Yeah! It just popped through! I hoped you had driven there and that you would stop by on your way back as we live close to the highway. But you flew. Something like that. Okay. Yeah.

I’m sorry I keep wanting to talking to you. I know I need to just chill but it’s like getting connected to a long lost family member (literally IS that) and I just want to hear all the details on where you’ve been... and also my heart aches that yours is broken and I just want to help you feel better… but I know there are so many lessons in this and that you have to FEEL through them yourself to heal. And they are hard. But you’re right, you’ll be stronger in the end.

Neutrality is the point of power. You can’t evict spirits from a place of anger. (Just heard that come through in the talk I’m listening to. I wish you could listen to it with me - it’s so relevant to what you are going through. I’ll just try soaking it up and send it to you through the ethers.)

Stefani’s past life - Judas thing - there is a lot of shame there that is bleeding through to this timeline and that makes her want to take her life. Also if she has taken pharmaceuticals they cause/trigger that. Anyway… your support in holding witness to her experience and if she can acknowledge and accept what happened and then let it dissolve, I think her self-hatred could begin to heal. SELF-LOVE is the medicine she needs. To fall in love with herself. Easier said than done but I think there is a lot of spiritual support from our teams to facilitate that now. 

Are you in love with yourself?

FOR ME:

Carissa:

Feel this. Feel the intensity. Feel the longing. Feel it and acknowledge it and bring it to neutrality. This is the work. Feel into it and don’t get swept away. Don’t let it sweep your consciousness and work away. I can see it now…you’re so willing to compromise yourself ALREADY after one conversation… to be close to this person who FEELS so RIGHT. It’s delusional. 

Don’t JUDGE. DON’T judge!

Accept and love!

I’m even wet. Very wet, like I’m waiting for my beloved to take me. I’m like an animal responding to this energy. If we were in the wild it would be natural but this is a broken system. 

Remember how you always want the boys to "like" you. What is this? It's part of my healing the HG Union... feeling the primordial separation from my beloved. I'm meant to template a TRUE HIEROGAMIC UNION. Inner... me and Me - female and male... and THEN God will bring a partner in. Not yet. I'm still working on my own self-love. This demonic spirit is trying to take me off course. I do not consent. I cut all RED CUBE and BLACK CUBE MATRIX cords. Dang Gabriels this year. First G Aaron and now G Lior. 

7:23 19:23

Lisa is teaching about how I need to put effort and discipline in order to get into right aligned thinking. YES. This is why this is all coming up. To practice and clear negative ego, fear, insecurities, etc. PRACTICE. This is NAA brainwashing 101. Thank you God for these lessons! I need to listen to this again and again. 

You see what's happening? It's taking me off course. 
Charisma = counterfeit. "face on a stick"... I don't want to do that anymore.

I cannot "save" anyone. I need to save myself. GET YOURSELF TOGETHER MAN!! Yeah. See this. Feel this. Shut down the one that talks it out... do not engage with this RED CUBE energy.

7:33

Mmmm. Yep. Tied into ADDICTION webbing. That's what this is too. And now I'm addicted to my phone. CLEAR MYSELF of addictive tendencies. LISTEN TO THIS AGAIN! 

8:18

I ate some crap at that baby shower...poison... processed food, sugar, etc. No wonder I'm so susceptible. Targeted attack!!!

9:44 9:54

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